You Choked Off The Surest Of Favors.
ok so i'm pretty much just done with everyone.
i'm not kidding this time. i'm done with people. i'm done with drama. i'm done with it all. fuck everything i've ever said, i can't do it anymore.
i'm going to become a recluse and stop talking to everyone. i'm not happy with myself, and i hate that. i hate hurting my friends and thats all i've been able to do lately.i can't accept the fact that its my fault, i can't pick up my own damn mess, i can't admit that i shit where i eat.(not literally on that last one)
i'm going to stop going to school early, i'm going to stop hanging out with my friends, i can't do that to them. i can't have them try and put up with all of my bullshit because i'm really not worth it. i can't have them trying to save me because i can't even save myself.for the first time in years thoughts of suicide are racing through my head again and i have them there while i try to fix myself. i can't drag them along through that.
i'm going to stop caring and bury myself in my books, which is something i should've done a long time ago.i should've given up on the highschool cliches and the highschool bullshit and just concentrate on getting into college.
i'm going to keep going to curves because i'm doing that for myself and i really enjoy it.maybe next year i'll be more willing to trust people and to trust myself, but not now.
i'm not kidding this time. i'm done with people. i'm done with drama. i'm done with it all. fuck everything i've ever said, i can't do it anymore.
i'm going to become a recluse and stop talking to everyone. i'm not happy with myself, and i hate that. i hate hurting my friends and thats all i've been able to do lately.i can't accept the fact that its my fault, i can't pick up my own damn mess, i can't admit that i shit where i eat.(not literally on that last one)
i'm going to stop going to school early, i'm going to stop hanging out with my friends, i can't do that to them. i can't have them try and put up with all of my bullshit because i'm really not worth it. i can't have them trying to save me because i can't even save myself.for the first time in years thoughts of suicide are racing through my head again and i have them there while i try to fix myself. i can't drag them along through that.
i'm going to stop caring and bury myself in my books, which is something i should've done a long time ago.i should've given up on the highschool cliches and the highschool bullshit and just concentrate on getting into college.
i'm going to keep going to curves because i'm doing that for myself and i really enjoy it.maybe next year i'll be more willing to trust people and to trust myself, but not now.