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I no longer know what to think or feel. Every time someone tries to talk to me about Freddie I vomit. I hate God. I hope he knows it too. Why does he take such innocent things. To be totally honest...I am not even sure if their is a God. If so hes not as great as we all think he is. At least he doesn't answer any of my prayers. All he does is take people and things I love away from me. After all he sent his only son to earth to be killed or "sacrificed". I can't trust him anymore. I hope one day I can forgive him. But as of now...I don't know what to do. I just wish I could have Freddie back. Even if it was just for a minute. Just so I could see his beautiful smile one last time. So I could hug him one last time. Damn it just give him back!