take me with a grain of salt please...
a lot has come on my plate as of recently. especially since today. family stuff... money stuff... car stuff... friend stuff... ::sighs:: found some stuff out that i should be fine with dealing with, but i'm still having a hard time with. not gonna write about that topic here. 3 out of 3 maybe? wow. what are the odds... i also found out today that my grandma went in for surgery on her ovary (she only has one) and it has cancer on it. they removed 90% of it, but the other 10% of the cancer is on her bladder. she has to go through radiation therapy. the doctor is optomistic, but it's stage 3 cancer. (stage 4 is the worst.) she is such a strong woman... one who never gets sick, so this is really rough. she had 9 damn kids with that ovary. ::shakes her head:: nine. wow.
i was going to take the money from my paycheck i'm getting tomorrow to put towards paying the massive credit card bill i have, but in turn, now that money must once again go towards fixing Lola. her breaks are going. you can hear her from like a block away... she is screatching when ever i drive her. it's gonna cost me like $200 to get her fixed. :o( that's an entire fucking paycheck. ::sighs:: i've been trying really hard to save money, but it seems as if every time i try to save, that my plans gets foiled by another fucking expense. it's starting to look as if some of the plans i've made for this summer might now be happening now, and that makes me really sad. i'm going to be applying for jobs tomorrow and friday. hopefully an additional job will help to make things a little more easier for me. i'm trying so damn hard to be financially independant. i'm trying to save money so i can buy lola from my parents. i'm trying to save so i can move *out* of my parent's house. i'm trying to save so i can pay for my own medical stuff and for my meds. i'm trying soooo hard... but i guess it's just not enough. at least on the positive side, i have health insurance. and a roof over my head. and parents who are willing to lend me a hand if needed. (but of course not with out a "stern financial talk" from my father... who doesn't deal with any of the family's financial stuff...) ::sighs:: i just feel really stressed right now. i don't feel like typing the rest of the stuff i was going to write about. i'm too tired. i'm really drained right now. i think i'm just gonna go lay down in my bed. leave me some positive thoughts. i need some right now. night kids...
i was going to take the money from my paycheck i'm getting tomorrow to put towards paying the massive credit card bill i have, but in turn, now that money must once again go towards fixing Lola. her breaks are going. you can hear her from like a block away... she is screatching when ever i drive her. it's gonna cost me like $200 to get her fixed. :o( that's an entire fucking paycheck. ::sighs:: i've been trying really hard to save money, but it seems as if every time i try to save, that my plans gets foiled by another fucking expense. it's starting to look as if some of the plans i've made for this summer might now be happening now, and that makes me really sad. i'm going to be applying for jobs tomorrow and friday. hopefully an additional job will help to make things a little more easier for me. i'm trying so damn hard to be financially independant. i'm trying to save money so i can buy lola from my parents. i'm trying to save so i can move *out* of my parent's house. i'm trying to save so i can pay for my own medical stuff and for my meds. i'm trying soooo hard... but i guess it's just not enough. at least on the positive side, i have health insurance. and a roof over my head. and parents who are willing to lend me a hand if needed. (but of course not with out a "stern financial talk" from my father... who doesn't deal with any of the family's financial stuff...) ::sighs:: i just feel really stressed right now. i don't feel like typing the rest of the stuff i was going to write about. i'm too tired. i'm really drained right now. i think i'm just gonna go lay down in my bed. leave me some positive thoughts. i need some right now. night kids...