Fear of phonecalls
I absolutely hate speaking in the telephone. If it is with family, it's okay, if it's with friends, it's okay too as long as we are quite close friends. But strangers...
The worst thing is when I have to make the calling part, and not the answering. Seeking that contact to speak with people you can't see. I had to do that today. With a stranger. It took about five minutes from that I had picked up the phone to me calling the number, just because of nervosity.
Calling strangers isn't too bad if you are doing it because of information. You have some questions, and they have the anwers. I had a really good reason to make my phonecall today, but it was still really nervous. The reason to that was who I called. SÄPO. Yeah, that's right, I called the security police to ask them about a case that I was going to write an article about. A case about a spy on Ultuna in Uppsala. Because it's a crime agains the security of the nation.
Well, the guy who anwered was nice, and he told me to send them an email with my questions and my telephone number, and they'd phone me back later. I did so, and they'll probably call to morrow. Now I'm just nervous for the fact that they'll call. That I have to speak to them. And that I can't prepare myself five minutes before the interview. And that most of the questions I asked probably wont be answered because of the case being classified as secret. Wonderful, not.
But hopefully it'll go okay, and hopefully I won't be so goddamn nervous in the future. Hopefully...
The worst thing is when I have to make the calling part, and not the answering. Seeking that contact to speak with people you can't see. I had to do that today. With a stranger. It took about five minutes from that I had picked up the phone to me calling the number, just because of nervosity.
Calling strangers isn't too bad if you are doing it because of information. You have some questions, and they have the anwers. I had a really good reason to make my phonecall today, but it was still really nervous. The reason to that was who I called. SÄPO. Yeah, that's right, I called the security police to ask them about a case that I was going to write an article about. A case about a spy on Ultuna in Uppsala. Because it's a crime agains the security of the nation.
Well, the guy who anwered was nice, and he told me to send them an email with my questions and my telephone number, and they'd phone me back later. I did so, and they'll probably call to morrow. Now I'm just nervous for the fact that they'll call. That I have to speak to them. And that I can't prepare myself five minutes before the interview. And that most of the questions I asked probably wont be answered because of the case being classified as secret. Wonderful, not.
But hopefully it'll go okay, and hopefully I won't be so goddamn nervous in the future. Hopefully...