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so...I'm a little bit stressed out because it's Sunday. I get stressed out every Sunday. So i found out that I fucked up bad with forensics. I hadn't talked to my novice and when i finally did, she said she couldn't do it and Dzurs got soo mad. Grr...so I called her this weekend and asked her to reconsider and we're still talking about it. I HAVE TO FIX THIS. I'm so sick of messing up. Like seriously...I would love forensics if i wasn't president. I hateee the stress that it puts on me. I should have just rejected the nomination for junior officer. I remember Jackie asking me and I'm like "YEAH!"...I'm sooo stupid. And last year, I was going to ask if I could be taken off of jr officer. but I didn't...and now i'm effing president with dave ford. ahh..I hate this. i can't wait to graduate. It's not that i hate school or anything. It's just that I can't enjoy school when i'm having anxiety over forensics and play and shit. Play isn't going that well either. We had a terrible practice on thursday. People just dooon't listen. I swear. Tomorrow better be an improvement. And then on Thursday, I have play at the same time as dance, but i'm scared that dzurs will get mad at me about it or something. I talked to my dance coach and she's like "well talk to rachel or lillian" and i talked to lillian, but i didn't get any answer from her. If play was going better, I wouldn't feel so nervous to ask Dzurs..but play is not good right now. Ahh..I can't wait for the dancer sleepover. It will be the shit. Wow...play's almost over. I can't wait for it to be over though. It sucks. I hate Annie. I didn't want to do it to begin with. I don't have a big part, but I'm actually happy because the less stress I have to deal with, the better. I need to go to a physical therapist about my back bc i have mild scholiosis, which is causing huge knots in my back all the time. It sometimes gets so bad, that my back gets swollen (right now it is). And ahh...if i have to do that with play and forensics because it will most likely be like 2 - 3 times a week. I don't even know. I need to talk to my counselor about getting early dismissal. I will be so happy with it. I can get soo much shit out of the way. But yeah, I have to call Rachel and hope that she practiced with her novice....if she didn't...SHIT.