fandamtastic
So. Uh. All the things.
I didn't admit to the world that I have a new job. It's good but to the wider world I have not admitted that I have begun lying under a rock. Yes, lying not laying. Fuck grammar. Being very still to catatonic. But also, being lifeless to the point of inauthentically human. Occasionally, I would get up and dance like life was in me. Pretend.
But. As soon as the world says: worthy.
I am.
Currently, in this moment, I am drunk.
Delivered safely, sweatily, drunkenly home.
The work world involved in the second week a polite going out with all the people.
Drinking and to a cover 80s band.
Freak.
I had forgotten I was one.
I guess they might know me now.
I had my hair all straightened and normal-seeming but I guess now that a dozen-odd people saw me commanding random strangers: Hop! to songs we all know...
I guess curly, messy hair won't be all that big a thing.
I didn't admit to the world that I have a new job. It's good but to the wider world I have not admitted that I have begun lying under a rock. Yes, lying not laying. Fuck grammar. Being very still to catatonic. But also, being lifeless to the point of inauthentically human. Occasionally, I would get up and dance like life was in me. Pretend.
But. As soon as the world says: worthy.
I am.
Currently, in this moment, I am drunk.
Delivered safely, sweatily, drunkenly home.
The work world involved in the second week a polite going out with all the people.
Drinking and to a cover 80s band.
Freak.
I had forgotten I was one.
I guess they might know me now.
I had my hair all straightened and normal-seeming but I guess now that a dozen-odd people saw me commanding random strangers: Hop! to songs we all know...
I guess curly, messy hair won't be all that big a thing.