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so i went to stephys myspace to post a stupid comment!
and then that was the first time i saw nikkis baby shower pics!
i saw pics of my cousin and ste[hy woth a hand on nikkis belly!
i wish i could have had them here while i was pregnant!
only person i had was rachel, and as much as i love her i would have died of happiness to have them here!
they never got to see me pregnant, they never got to feel her move in my belly, only nikki!
i keep thinking... my next one will be diffrent! i wont be alone for my next one! i will have a real baby shower next time!
but i doubt that 1) it will be any time soon as i am steering clear from guys and 2) im in this fucking shithole state!!!
i hate the army!
if i could go back... i would have given an arm and a leg to have them near me through that whole time... instead of being alone!
nikki... i hope you know how lucky you are! and how i would have LOVED to have it how you do there. family issues aside!!
and then that was the first time i saw nikkis baby shower pics!
i saw pics of my cousin and ste[hy woth a hand on nikkis belly!
i wish i could have had them here while i was pregnant!
only person i had was rachel, and as much as i love her i would have died of happiness to have them here!
they never got to see me pregnant, they never got to feel her move in my belly, only nikki!
i keep thinking... my next one will be diffrent! i wont be alone for my next one! i will have a real baby shower next time!
but i doubt that 1) it will be any time soon as i am steering clear from guys and 2) im in this fucking shithole state!!!
i hate the army!
if i could go back... i would have given an arm and a leg to have them near me through that whole time... instead of being alone!
nikki... i hope you know how lucky you are! and how i would have LOVED to have it how you do there. family issues aside!!