the dream of a common language

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it's simple to wake from sleep with a stranger,
dress, go out, drink coffee,
enter a life again. it isn't simple
to wake from sleep into the neighborhood
of one neither strange nor familiar
whom we have chosen to trust. trusting, untrusting,
we lowered ourselves into this, let ourselves
downward hand over hand as on a rope that quivered
over the unsearched... we did this. conceived
of each other, conceived each other in a darkness
which i remember as drenched in light.

i want to call this, life.

but i can't call it life until we start to move
beyond this secret circle of fire
where our bodies are giant shadows flung on a wall
where the night becomes our inner darkness, and sleeps
like a dumb beast, head on her paws, in the corner.