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strangely - reading Jason's entry, made me miss Ben. Seeing his best friends comments and such. It just - brings back memories of us and Ben. He called a few nights back, but it was late so I said I needed sleep. I wish I had stayed on the phone. Ben was just such a great person, and I miss having him in my daily life. I mean sure - we'll always be friends... But hearing from him biweekly, and only seeing him a few weeks a year, is not the same as our five hour phone calls every day, and hanging out every single weekend. I miss that. I could tell him anything. He cared what happened to me. Not just during the big things either... Even the dumb day to day things - He actually cared. And I cared about him. That's really rare in friends now. I don't think I have any friends nowadays that would actually breakdown and cry in a public place because they knew they couldn't have that friendship anymore. I don't really think I mean that much to anyone, nor that anyone means that much to me. It;s not that I don't want to care - Friendship like that is not a choice, it comes on like a storm, and there isn't a damn thing you can do to bring it on, or resist it, or even predict it. I miss Ben.
“Certain things should just stay the way they are. You ought to be able to stick them in one of those big glass cases and just leave them alone.”
If you know this book well enough to realize this quote is from it, or if you know Ben well enough to see the significance - you really know me. or if you know the story behind my current music. Maybe we should get some coffee sometime?
“Certain things should just stay the way they are. You ought to be able to stick them in one of those big glass cases and just leave them alone.”
If you know this book well enough to realize this quote is from it, or if you know Ben well enough to see the significance - you really know me. or if you know the story behind my current music. Maybe we should get some coffee sometime?