cocaine
i havent used in over 2 months.
i have had cravings, i have had drunken and sober nights, evenings and days where all i have wanted was a bump.
i made a lot of people angry...and the worst; disappointed.
while everyone was angry at me i was spending hundreds of dollars on coke.
ive been stung out in front of all of you, and im sorry.
i told a lot of people, one in particular, that i would stop, and i didnt. im so sorry.
its been a while since i have seen all of you, or even posted.
even so, i feel very proud of the fact that i havent used.
this is the worst thing to FINALLY post about, but im healthy, and i dont think theres anything more important than that.
it feels good to spend money on food, movies, rent and clothes instead of coke.
it feels even better to sleep and wake up rested instead of needy and desperate.
i will be the first one to say " i had a problem" and it didnt take anyone, but me to stop.
im happy now.
i have had cravings, i have had drunken and sober nights, evenings and days where all i have wanted was a bump.
i made a lot of people angry...and the worst; disappointed.
while everyone was angry at me i was spending hundreds of dollars on coke.
ive been stung out in front of all of you, and im sorry.
i told a lot of people, one in particular, that i would stop, and i didnt. im so sorry.
its been a while since i have seen all of you, or even posted.
even so, i feel very proud of the fact that i havent used.
this is the worst thing to FINALLY post about, but im healthy, and i dont think theres anything more important than that.
it feels good to spend money on food, movies, rent and clothes instead of coke.
it feels even better to sleep and wake up rested instead of needy and desperate.
i will be the first one to say " i had a problem" and it didnt take anyone, but me to stop.
im happy now.