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I am unable to sleep as always. I just spent 30 minutes sitting on my sofa in the dark & talking to nothing. I guess I hope someone will hear me.
I'm so emotionally attached to this place. I got out of bed & walked to the kitchen. I believe that if I stand in a room & soak it up, that I will never forget it. I'm not sure how I thought I could ever move to the west coast. I get emotional about moving 1 mile. A place becomes more about the memories you make in it & we have made this place a home.
2010 has been a mess of emotions. Justin thinks I'm depressed. I refuse to medicate. I told him I sleep so much because then I don't have to think of all the bad things. He says, "yeah you're depressed". I easily stress myself out. It runs in the family. We suffer from panic attacks & night terrors. My back has been hurting all week & I've had an infection for almost a year now. What do the doctors say? "It won't go away because you're stressed out". So, I have an infection because I am stressed out & I am stressed out because I have an infection. I've spend so much money on medicine that never works.
2010 is the year of lost friendships. No matter how much you love someone, timing is everything. No matter how much you tell them you love them, if your lives aren't running parallel, then nothing will ever come of it. Fate will ultimately decide. Dear friend of mine, I will always love you & I cannot believe you are no longer in my life. It's hard to lose someone that you never imagined your life without. There are some people that come into your life that even if you've only known them a few minutes, you feel as if you've known them for lifetimes.
2010 I can't wait until your over. I will throw a big New Years Eve bash at my new place this year. I will pour giant glasses of champagne and welcome what 2011 has to bring. Anything has to be better then what I am feeling now.
I'm so emotionally attached to this place. I got out of bed & walked to the kitchen. I believe that if I stand in a room & soak it up, that I will never forget it. I'm not sure how I thought I could ever move to the west coast. I get emotional about moving 1 mile. A place becomes more about the memories you make in it & we have made this place a home.
2010 has been a mess of emotions. Justin thinks I'm depressed. I refuse to medicate. I told him I sleep so much because then I don't have to think of all the bad things. He says, "yeah you're depressed". I easily stress myself out. It runs in the family. We suffer from panic attacks & night terrors. My back has been hurting all week & I've had an infection for almost a year now. What do the doctors say? "It won't go away because you're stressed out". So, I have an infection because I am stressed out & I am stressed out because I have an infection. I've spend so much money on medicine that never works.
2010 is the year of lost friendships. No matter how much you love someone, timing is everything. No matter how much you tell them you love them, if your lives aren't running parallel, then nothing will ever come of it. Fate will ultimately decide. Dear friend of mine, I will always love you & I cannot believe you are no longer in my life. It's hard to lose someone that you never imagined your life without. There are some people that come into your life that even if you've only known them a few minutes, you feel as if you've known them for lifetimes.
2010 I can't wait until your over. I will throw a big New Years Eve bash at my new place this year. I will pour giant glasses of champagne and welcome what 2011 has to bring. Anything has to be better then what I am feeling now.