what a day
hmm, I'm still with Pat..sometimes I think that things just aren't going to work out, and well thats sad ofcourse, he just always seems like a puppy or something. I love him to death but I can't help but feel like there is something better out there for me..I am determined to keep a long lasting relationship with him because I know that I have had problems with that in the past..I just didn't think that things would be like this. Sometimes I don't want anything to do with him and other times I have to be hugging all over him..it's so weird. is that normal or do I just have problems. He really is always there for me, and I can see it in his eyes that he loves me..maybe I am just scared. Sometimes I just feel like crying because of it, I just didn't think that things would be this hard. Is it just me or do we really just not have a connection. I know we do, it is just really hard for me to be able to talk to him..about anything, and that isn't his fault, it's mine. He is such a sweetheart, and he writes me these letters that are just so sweet and make me so happy, and he talks about how he wants to be there for me..and I really want to be there for him I just don't know how..I have no fucking clue how to have a relationship. I feel like that one retarted kid in a room full of genius', silly Danielle.
So yeah..on a happier note..I'm getting a Chihuahua!!! Hell yes, shes only 2 weeks old right now so I can't take her home yet..my beautiful baby! she is all white..but she isn't old enough to open her eyes yet so I dont know what color they are..right now she is half the size of my hand..haha, I will post a pic when I get to bring her home.
Yeyness...damn, it's snowing outside and they said that they might have to keep us here AFTER school, isn't that fucky..they should let us go now otherwise the snow will be so thick that we can't get home. whatever..I'm not going to get to see my Patty Boy until later today anyways.
Hmm, I talked to a couple of my ex's last night..it was kinda crazy, Dustin..who I (oh god) loved..with a passion. and then Petie..it was weird..Petie's mom is about to die..it was sadness..and Dustin told me to call him back so I didn't because I know that we are better off not being friends otherwise we might end up hooking up again and I would just end up getting fucked over..AGAIN.
I can't stop touching the tattoo I got on my hand, I can feel the little bumps where the ink is..crazyness..Sean did it at lunch the other day, it's 3 little dots that mean "my crazy life".
It's still fuckin snowing..ok I'm pist now.
Julie is being such a bitch. Fuck her, she fuckin lies about everything. Where is my Bong hat..or my Kings shirt, or why did she take my pipe without asking. or she lied to me about Louie Coke, whatever, fuck her.
I want my puppy.
haha, my mom lets me smoke bud now, she even said that she would do it with me..I smoked out of my first Zong yesterday and my first blunt..hell yes..I loved it. Everyone have a good day.
So yeah..on a happier note..I'm getting a Chihuahua!!! Hell yes, shes only 2 weeks old right now so I can't take her home yet..my beautiful baby! she is all white..but she isn't old enough to open her eyes yet so I dont know what color they are..right now she is half the size of my hand..haha, I will post a pic when I get to bring her home.
Yeyness...damn, it's snowing outside and they said that they might have to keep us here AFTER school, isn't that fucky..they should let us go now otherwise the snow will be so thick that we can't get home. whatever..I'm not going to get to see my Patty Boy until later today anyways.
Hmm, I talked to a couple of my ex's last night..it was kinda crazy, Dustin..who I (oh god) loved..with a passion. and then Petie..it was weird..Petie's mom is about to die..it was sadness..and Dustin told me to call him back so I didn't because I know that we are better off not being friends otherwise we might end up hooking up again and I would just end up getting fucked over..AGAIN.
I can't stop touching the tattoo I got on my hand, I can feel the little bumps where the ink is..crazyness..Sean did it at lunch the other day, it's 3 little dots that mean "my crazy life".
It's still fuckin snowing..ok I'm pist now.
Julie is being such a bitch. Fuck her, she fuckin lies about everything. Where is my Bong hat..or my Kings shirt, or why did she take my pipe without asking. or she lied to me about Louie Coke, whatever, fuck her.
I want my puppy.
haha, my mom lets me smoke bud now, she even said that she would do it with me..I smoked out of my first Zong yesterday and my first blunt..hell yes..I loved it. Everyone have a good day.