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so the whole derek thing is getting a little frustrating, but then again, i should be used to it by now because i pull this shit all the time. hes just so damn adorable and that only makes it even harder to not want to be with him. he really is an amazing kid.hes sweet and funny and is an awesome kisser. besides that, he makes me feel really safe. like he was holding me last night and it was like i could finally just breathe...but thats really not the best thing right now. i dont know where we stand as of now and thats where the frustration kicks in. he and natalie broke a while ago and i know that that really just broke him and his friends had been shit. i know how he feels because i broke up with andrew just before school started and that was just a really bad situation and what not. i know what i want to happen, but i have no idea if it will end up working out the way i want it too or not. i know how he feels about it(sort of)but i dont know where he wants to go. i dont want to fall for him-but im not sure if you can control that or not.