burdens are heavy
so there is alot going on in my family right now. My twin sister just found out that she is pregnant. We cant let my school find out cause its a christian college and well her and I are basically already on probabtion for drinking and going to parties... This school is lame. I honestly dont know why I decided to go here. I mean yes I love God and I enjoy learning about the bible and the things that go with it but did I honestly think I was going to do something with a degree in theology? I mean I dont think I want to be a missionary, though I like to volunteer, and I dont want to be a youth pastor though I love working with kids. I dont know I dont know I dont know! It sounds stupid but I kinda want to do somthing totally different then what I am going to school for. But even then I am not sure if I want to do that... oi I hate decisions. They suck the fun out of life. I wish complications could be erased. Who needs to suffer to really enjoy and appreciate life? I dont. and I know a million suffering people who would agree. I almost feel like my sister got off easy. She knows what she has to do now. I know she is going to suffer with money and school issues but at least she has a clue to what her path in life is sending her off to... I dont and I think that scariest thing in life is not knowing what your purpose of doing anything is for..... blah I miss venting. I miss writing in general. I cant really post much on myspace cause people from school read it and judge... on here its different. :)