Misery loves company
And so I turtle within myself. Since turning 29, ironically with a celebration to kick off the last year of my 20s', I've never felt so old and resort to petty tactics to push those away who have come too close. Why do I always end up here? No matter how many times I've gone through it. My mind has been more fragmented than ever, so let's just recap my bday, since it's one for the books:
- The guy I'm seeing had a lot of academic obligations and in attending my bday party, increased his workload
+ my friends got to meet the person I'm seeing (well, I'm not sure how we are now and I hate to admit I probably already lost him as I'm typing this since we had an ugly argument that blew way out of proportion yesterday, more on this later)
+/- celebrated my bday for the first time since I was 6 years old (tbh, I never do because it reminds me how few friends I really have)
+ meet some new friends
+ ended up loaded as fuck
- no M was avail, but apparently shrooms were kickin' around
- winter tried to ruin the party, but I'm glad to see a few of my friends make it out
+/- turning 29 has been interesting so far. I mean for the last decade, I haven't felt any different, but I'm feeling the change for sure
+ got a few gifts from Reiko & Ron
+ Vic, Annie, and Quinn brought me a bday cake
+ made out in a cubbyhole with him. Felt all young again!
- he passed out in the hallway and missed the rest of the party. I kept going back to check in on him and though, I was worried he looked so precious
+ scored a bed for me, him, and my good friend, B in a guest room downstairs with a KING-SIZE bed where we all became a cuddle puddle <3
- The guy I'm seeing had a lot of academic obligations and in attending my bday party, increased his workload
+ my friends got to meet the person I'm seeing (well, I'm not sure how we are now and I hate to admit I probably already lost him as I'm typing this since we had an ugly argument that blew way out of proportion yesterday, more on this later)
+/- celebrated my bday for the first time since I was 6 years old (tbh, I never do because it reminds me how few friends I really have)
+ meet some new friends
+ ended up loaded as fuck
- no M was avail, but apparently shrooms were kickin' around
- winter tried to ruin the party, but I'm glad to see a few of my friends make it out
+/- turning 29 has been interesting so far. I mean for the last decade, I haven't felt any different, but I'm feeling the change for sure
+ got a few gifts from Reiko & Ron
+ Vic, Annie, and Quinn brought me a bday cake
+ made out in a cubbyhole with him. Felt all young again!
- he passed out in the hallway and missed the rest of the party. I kept going back to check in on him and though, I was worried he looked so precious
+ scored a bed for me, him, and my good friend, B in a guest room downstairs with a KING-SIZE bed where we all became a cuddle puddle <3