Hmm..haven't done this in a while...
Ok, so here's the scene. High school, still wearing it's 70's mustard yellow and mint green. Office, the only one in the entire district that is open year round and also the only one WITHOUT AIR CONDITIONING!!!! Me, trying to look busy/occupied/interested for 8 hours, all while wasting countless hours trying to get to websites that are blocked due to past fuckheads, and keeping from sweating profusely, all while sitting at my desk. (and being everyone's bitch when they need something done) Oh, I am NOT complaining, I think this is the easiest and least stressful job I have ever held. Anyway, the real point of my visit is to say a few things about my life right now. First of all, I still know exactly what I want. The problem is I'm having a hard time doing all of it. New York is stressing me out like crazy, mostly due to my parents unrealistic expectations. I have kept a 1/2 filled out application for FIT on my counter for going on three weeks, and can't make myself fill it out. Fuck. I can't let my attachments keep me hear, or sway my goals. Mostly, I'm feeling really lonely. My family is continually gone. My man went home to Costa Rica, where all we can do is email, or talk occasionally by phone card, and every night before I go to sleep ALL I want is to hear his voice. Above all, I miss my partner in crime. I miss,oh so bad, 2 am, pizza house and parking ramps, cool runs, crying cuz I knew you would say just the right words to make it ok, and GLAM SQUAD 2005. You have your summer of freedom, and fake ids, and I have a summer of longing and sober nights that end at 12am. I miss it all.