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Its been awhile since I've written anything and thats mostly because I've been a loss for words. Tonight I finally got to watch my new DVD THE Hidden Blade. It's a JApanese movie with subtitles and I thought it was pretty good. HAs good moral of Honor and Id give it a 5 out of ten. ITs a worthy watch if your into Forgien Asian films. It makes me soooo want to sew a kimono and show up at an SCA in it. YEah I know...but it would be period of course.
Work has been ....well its been busy and Im learning more than I could ever have Imagined. I just wish I Was getting paid a legal secutarys pay for the work I do. Seeing as Im doing more than I was hired to do. But ...all take it for now.
Got some depressing news from my sister yesterday...and I hate to say it because ...well This isn't something that is looked on with open eyes, but should be. Seems my niece OD on herion...and the whole time she was up in San Fran she was using. Im so heart broken over this and part of me is not shocked. This girl grew up in MAlibu with everything given to her. All her friends where from the most famous people in hollywood. People you would not believe , But most of these kids have been in and out of rehab more than once. Its sad...so many oppurtunitys at thier feet and the only outlet they could find was drugs. Anyway...my niece is now in a 12 step rehab program and I pray to who ever will hear them that it cleans her up and most of all she gets her head together. We can't tell my father cause he would die...and well its not something you want to say to a man that is blessed everyday he wakes up alive. ( Deep Sigh )
I havnt really been going to much SCA events....and I kinda miss it. I miss my friends and the energy that floats around. I miss the sound of Pierre playing his consetina and watching everyone do thier own things. I have just had a gloomy cloud floating around me and most of it comes from the feeling of not feeling like I fit in there anymore. I have no purpose and Im not use to doing nothing. I guess Im most happy when Im doing for Others. Im a happy servant...always have been. This weekend I need to finish up the yule invitations I was comissioned to do for the Midrealm. I think they will be pretty nice. Not totally period but....hey..... I didnt have much time and well its not a scroll. IT will have to do.
Home life has been filled with trying to outsmart the rats that seem to find my garage a pleasant place to live because of my pigs. I believe theres one left to die...sad cause it goes agianst everything I beleive. But they are stealing the pig food and water and causing patch and phillip to much stress. Not to mention that they could give them some bad sickness. Halloween...was...uneventful ...other than being able to scare a few kids.
Hey they liked it. Trust me.
I sometimes wonder who reads my blogs....and if it means anything to them. Well its just a place to let out my thoughts so they don't build up and cause me to much stress. They change my Meds...no Im not on PRosac...its something to control the acid refux because its way out of control. So far its ok...but the nexium was far better. I dont like taking pills and have tryed handling it with diet and just staying away from foods that just kill me. So in a nut shell im depressed as of tonight. I wish I could go visit my friends back east and see my Godchild. I would just love to get away for awhile and breath deep and let out some smoke. Ok Im just babbaling now.....Guess all miss coronation next week...HAve to take my mother out to lancaster for a baby shower. This will be her Great grandchild so its a must. Plus its important to me as well. ok..im off to bed ..I just hope I have a nice dream I could use some happy dreams. Cause lately they have been far to wierd and I havnt been sleeping well at all.
Work has been ....well its been busy and Im learning more than I could ever have Imagined. I just wish I Was getting paid a legal secutarys pay for the work I do. Seeing as Im doing more than I was hired to do. But ...all take it for now.
Got some depressing news from my sister yesterday...and I hate to say it because ...well This isn't something that is looked on with open eyes, but should be. Seems my niece OD on herion...and the whole time she was up in San Fran she was using. Im so heart broken over this and part of me is not shocked. This girl grew up in MAlibu with everything given to her. All her friends where from the most famous people in hollywood. People you would not believe , But most of these kids have been in and out of rehab more than once. Its sad...so many oppurtunitys at thier feet and the only outlet they could find was drugs. Anyway...my niece is now in a 12 step rehab program and I pray to who ever will hear them that it cleans her up and most of all she gets her head together. We can't tell my father cause he would die...and well its not something you want to say to a man that is blessed everyday he wakes up alive. ( Deep Sigh )
I havnt really been going to much SCA events....and I kinda miss it. I miss my friends and the energy that floats around. I miss the sound of Pierre playing his consetina and watching everyone do thier own things. I have just had a gloomy cloud floating around me and most of it comes from the feeling of not feeling like I fit in there anymore. I have no purpose and Im not use to doing nothing. I guess Im most happy when Im doing for Others. Im a happy servant...always have been. This weekend I need to finish up the yule invitations I was comissioned to do for the Midrealm. I think they will be pretty nice. Not totally period but....hey..... I didnt have much time and well its not a scroll. IT will have to do.
Home life has been filled with trying to outsmart the rats that seem to find my garage a pleasant place to live because of my pigs. I believe theres one left to die...sad cause it goes agianst everything I beleive. But they are stealing the pig food and water and causing patch and phillip to much stress. Not to mention that they could give them some bad sickness. Halloween...was...uneventful ...other than being able to scare a few kids.
Hey they liked it. Trust me.
I sometimes wonder who reads my blogs....and if it means anything to them. Well its just a place to let out my thoughts so they don't build up and cause me to much stress. They change my Meds...no Im not on PRosac...its something to control the acid refux because its way out of control. So far its ok...but the nexium was far better. I dont like taking pills and have tryed handling it with diet and just staying away from foods that just kill me. So in a nut shell im depressed as of tonight. I wish I could go visit my friends back east and see my Godchild. I would just love to get away for awhile and breath deep and let out some smoke. Ok Im just babbaling now.....Guess all miss coronation next week...HAve to take my mother out to lancaster for a baby shower. This will be her Great grandchild so its a must. Plus its important to me as well. ok..im off to bed ..I just hope I have a nice dream I could use some happy dreams. Cause lately they have been far to wierd and I havnt been sleeping well at all.