change
i am at a point where i really want to change my life.
a fork in the road.
i need change, but the thought of it makes me soooo nauseaus. thinking about the future makes me nauseaus. i want it to stop.
so now i change. now i start. now i stop caring about things that are useless. the people at my school, the ones who look at me with disdain or treat me differently.
i am going to be more healthy. i need to. i dont want to die like my grandmother did from leading an unhealthy life. quitting smoking, no more beer, avoiding junkfood and what not. some daily form of exercise.
i wont push people away who like me. i do it often, on purpose or just as a prat of my subconscious.
tonight i want to dye my hair funny colors. i miss funny colors. =) i cant wait.
tina
a fork in the road.
i need change, but the thought of it makes me soooo nauseaus. thinking about the future makes me nauseaus. i want it to stop.
so now i change. now i start. now i stop caring about things that are useless. the people at my school, the ones who look at me with disdain or treat me differently.
i am going to be more healthy. i need to. i dont want to die like my grandmother did from leading an unhealthy life. quitting smoking, no more beer, avoiding junkfood and what not. some daily form of exercise.
i wont push people away who like me. i do it often, on purpose or just as a prat of my subconscious.
tonight i want to dye my hair funny colors. i miss funny colors. =) i cant wait.
tina