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People always tell me that well-being is a state of mind. They say things to me like, "You can will it away" or "Fight it off" or "Concentrate on feeling good, and don't dwell on feeling bad." I continue to say, "That is bullshit." However, I'm always the one getting sick. Do I lack the strength of character to fight it off? Am I too weak to live happily? It feels like there is a fist lodged in my throat. Every time I swallow I think about ending it all - have Danny K strike the back of my head with Danny D's cue ball-in-a-sock.