Idol 9.0 Introduction
Most of my closest connections started online.
My husband, Ben, and I met on OKCupid.
Lloyd and I met through video blogging. Same with Jake.
My best friend, Tamara, and I met through old message boards. Do people even still frequent places like that any more?
I have a certain level of social anxiety. Befriending people online, where I can be myself through words and videos is just so much easier than trying to get to know people in the real world.
I hide it well, though. I perform on stage sometimes. The people who know about my social anxiety wonder how I manage to do that. But my performance is an art, and one that doesn't require much interaction with other people. It may not seem like anxiety and confidence are welcome bedfellows, but confidence can be faked, and it's about the only thing I can fake well. Well, that, and pretending I'm not sexually interested in certain people when it seems unrequited.
The only people I meet in the real world first, online second, are other performers like me. And family, I suppose. My husband's relatives, and the sons I've birthed. But I'm not meeting new family that way any longer.
So here I am, hoping to have time to write about situations and people that have impacted my life, online and off.
My husband, Ben, and I met on OKCupid.
Lloyd and I met through video blogging. Same with Jake.
My best friend, Tamara, and I met through old message boards. Do people even still frequent places like that any more?
I have a certain level of social anxiety. Befriending people online, where I can be myself through words and videos is just so much easier than trying to get to know people in the real world.
I hide it well, though. I perform on stage sometimes. The people who know about my social anxiety wonder how I manage to do that. But my performance is an art, and one that doesn't require much interaction with other people. It may not seem like anxiety and confidence are welcome bedfellows, but confidence can be faked, and it's about the only thing I can fake well. Well, that, and pretending I'm not sexually interested in certain people when it seems unrequited.
The only people I meet in the real world first, online second, are other performers like me. And family, I suppose. My husband's relatives, and the sons I've birthed. But I'm not meeting new family that way any longer.
So here I am, hoping to have time to write about situations and people that have impacted my life, online and off.