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hmm.. im kinda here just cause i wanted to talk to paris. about a few things and just basiclly just to talk. well since shes not here i guess i'll go. not much to do here except sit around and do nothing, eat nothing, watch nothing on tv, or talk to the not so many people online. i'll talk a bit or two online then go.. hm.. i'll make myself sound just as i am. i'll later go sit on my ugly but comfortable couch all alone. watch a tv show or a movie all alone. maybe eat some ice cream all alone. curl up in some blankets all alone. and yea do other shit all alone. hmm.. tonight.. i fell as lonely as i have ever felt before. its so quiet. i hear the clock ticking and my breathing. im left here alone only to think of the one i dream of and love. im lost, confused, feel a little broken, shattered maybe, few hints of sadness, idk if crushed is a good word to use, i've already said im lonely, oh another one, im very thoughtful right now, very very thoughtful. i wonder if there's any more ways to describe how im feeling. yea, there is, here they go. im worried about hmm guess who and what went on a few whiles ago. i feel a little wierd or strange.. whatever you think sounds better. now lets sum up all these words or feelings into one simpler word. that word i would have to say is awkward. hope you had fun reading this, i'll probly be normal or whatever by the time i get a comment or someone actually reads this. comment if you'd like, no rush for any of them since i dont seem to get much anymore.

i love paris

he didnt notice the more he thought, the worse he'd feel. he was so confused at the moment that he didnt know what was happening at all. he did though understand a few things that had happened, and even tho they didnt cause him to feel good, he forgave her without her explanation of why..

..then poof he was gone..