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i've burned way too many bridges in this town. I hate going to public places because i don't want to risk seeing someone that hates me. I want to leave as soon as possible so i can start a new life somewhere else. I want to be given the chance to turn over a new leaf and become a better person instead of just doing shitty things to people and ruining relationships. These past few months have really reassured to me how much i don't belong here. The only thing really keeping me here is my family. i'm tired of living a repetitive mediocre life: going to a job that i dont like to not make very much money, go to a community college where i dont learn very much and don't have any friends, eat occasionally, and sleep at night and during the day when i literally have nothing else to do. i'm so sick of crying all the time because i know my life isn't where it should be and i don't know how to fix it. I just can't handle it anymore, and i need to stop talking about leaving and actually do it.