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"Huney, you're a chase girl, aren't you?"
"Uh...I donno...I guess...yeah..."
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Yes, it's true sadly, I'm a chase girl. I want things that I can't have and love trying to get them. I love the thrill of the chase and then what I want becomes available or is made a possibility and then I'm disinterested. And that's sad and pathetic because it's so infantile to be that kind of person. So now, I've decided I'm going to be sure there is a genuine interest there before I pursue something. I'm tired of doing this for the chase. It's not fulfilling in the way that I need. And I don't know if what I've been wanting is purely out of the desire for the chase, or even if I really want it... I don't know, I hate to say that. But I'm not totally sure right now. Maybe it's just right now. I'd like to see how things work out. I don't want to force anything. I hate doing that. I really do. So yeah. I don't know where exactly that leaves me, but I guess time will tell. As with all things. It's amazing how many secrets time holds. And though eventually all is revealed, it still sucks while you wait. Or maybe that's just another problem, I'm impatient with things too. Ironic, isn't it? I like the chase, but I'm impatient with it. I'll get bored of the chase sometimes even. I heard a line last night in a movie. "Nothing ever holds your interest for long." I wonder if that's true about me. It happens alot with boyfriends and all. I lose complete interest after 1 or 2 months of dating them. I just get bored with them. Everything they do that I used to think is cute becomes annoying and I don't want to deal with them anymore so I just cut off communication. I tell them it's not working out and just walk away. People think I'm cold or cruel because this is so easy, but really, I just lose all interest. It's not that I don't like the person as a person, I get bored and leave. I don't want to do that anymore. I think I rush alot of things because I'm so impatient so from now on I'm taking it slower. I'm not getting involved so quickly. Seriously, I'm not. (we'll see...) Yeah... So that's it for now... This is just sorta an entry to remind myself....
"Uh...I donno...I guess...yeah..."
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Yes, it's true sadly, I'm a chase girl. I want things that I can't have and love trying to get them. I love the thrill of the chase and then what I want becomes available or is made a possibility and then I'm disinterested. And that's sad and pathetic because it's so infantile to be that kind of person. So now, I've decided I'm going to be sure there is a genuine interest there before I pursue something. I'm tired of doing this for the chase. It's not fulfilling in the way that I need. And I don't know if what I've been wanting is purely out of the desire for the chase, or even if I really want it... I don't know, I hate to say that. But I'm not totally sure right now. Maybe it's just right now. I'd like to see how things work out. I don't want to force anything. I hate doing that. I really do. So yeah. I don't know where exactly that leaves me, but I guess time will tell. As with all things. It's amazing how many secrets time holds. And though eventually all is revealed, it still sucks while you wait. Or maybe that's just another problem, I'm impatient with things too. Ironic, isn't it? I like the chase, but I'm impatient with it. I'll get bored of the chase sometimes even. I heard a line last night in a movie. "Nothing ever holds your interest for long." I wonder if that's true about me. It happens alot with boyfriends and all. I lose complete interest after 1 or 2 months of dating them. I just get bored with them. Everything they do that I used to think is cute becomes annoying and I don't want to deal with them anymore so I just cut off communication. I tell them it's not working out and just walk away. People think I'm cold or cruel because this is so easy, but really, I just lose all interest. It's not that I don't like the person as a person, I get bored and leave. I don't want to do that anymore. I think I rush alot of things because I'm so impatient so from now on I'm taking it slower. I'm not getting involved so quickly. Seriously, I'm not. (we'll see...) Yeah... So that's it for now... This is just sorta an entry to remind myself....