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So I haven't updated real recently, so I figured it was time. I feel burnt out. Working where I work, it's only to be expected, but I guess I just always expected that I would somehow be special and it wouldn't get to me. It's frustrating working with people who are court mandated because they don't want to be there. They may find some reason to talk to you, but they really don't want to change and often don't think they were doing anything wrong in the first place. It's draining trying to help people who don't want your help. It's even harder trying to help teenagers and children who do want help, but their parents don't want to be involved. "Fix them." Ugh. I don't fix anyone. I guide them, encourage them, support them... but I don't fix. It's really sad. And the parents who choose to bring their kids in... as soon as the presenting problem is gone, the kids are too. The parents don't want to wait around for more session and possibly more money to get the root of the problem. They see the changes and then yank the kids. It's a horrible cycle and parents don't seem to understand. As per usual, it's the parents, not the kids that make working with the kids hard. And to add to all of that, it is impossible to help someone who doesn't have food. There is a base level of need. Every person need to be fed, and clothed, and all those physiological needs before anyone can worry about the emotional and mental parts. It just intensifies the difficulty of my job.
Then, I come to the job I get paid for. And I'm most definitely thankful for this job despite it's frustrations. Most of my frustrations here come from the disorganization of the program on the whole as well as the professors specifically. I spend most of my time in my office with the files, attempting to figure out people's paperwork. However, it doesn't always work out. People are stupid and they do the paperwork wrong and then the professors lose their paperwork and try to blame me for it. Luckily, I document everything, so I am rarely held accountable in the end. On top of all of this hassle, all the students expect me to know everything about not only the program, but the school and all of the other majors. They expect me to know their assignments, and have copies of all stuff which really just isn't my job at all.
Then there's school. And I just don't even know where to begin with all of that. School is, to say the very least, exhausting. I spend somewhere around 8 hours a week just doing the reading. Then there are the assignments and projects and presentations... it adds up very quickly. It leaves little time for me to socialize and that just makes things worse.
My friends would be the shining point here. The really good ones... the ones who call when they say and miss me when I'm gone (and say so). They make things just a little brighter. Unfortunately the amount of time I get to spend with friends is so minimal, it's sad.
Running is another high spot (most days). I feel as though I can run away almost any emotion that overpowers me. I've never really felt this way about running before and I imagine it'll only get better as I get in better and better shape. I'm up to 3 miles a day. That's pretty good.
Then there's my lj comms. And I adore them. I spend a good deal of time modding the comms and I believe it's appreciated for the most part. However, there are times when I just want to throw in the towel. It's so exhausting to deal with complaints about stupid things and way worse to deal with lj drama. Now, it's one thing to cause drama in an RPG because it belongs there and it's another to cause someone else to be stressed about it in real life. People are on here to have fun. There's no need for lots of rules or being mean or anything like that. Seriously, it really annoys me. I mean, what does it take for someone to bitch/make fun of another person they don't even really know via internet? SERIOUSLY people. Ugh.
Well, that's it for now. I have a meeting in a bit and then class after working all day... I'll survive, it's just burnout.
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GET WELL, KELLY! (seasonal allergies suck.... lol *kills fake doctor who gave you allergy medication and then laughs*)
Then, I come to the job I get paid for. And I'm most definitely thankful for this job despite it's frustrations. Most of my frustrations here come from the disorganization of the program on the whole as well as the professors specifically. I spend most of my time in my office with the files, attempting to figure out people's paperwork. However, it doesn't always work out. People are stupid and they do the paperwork wrong and then the professors lose their paperwork and try to blame me for it. Luckily, I document everything, so I am rarely held accountable in the end. On top of all of this hassle, all the students expect me to know everything about not only the program, but the school and all of the other majors. They expect me to know their assignments, and have copies of all stuff which really just isn't my job at all.
Then there's school. And I just don't even know where to begin with all of that. School is, to say the very least, exhausting. I spend somewhere around 8 hours a week just doing the reading. Then there are the assignments and projects and presentations... it adds up very quickly. It leaves little time for me to socialize and that just makes things worse.
My friends would be the shining point here. The really good ones... the ones who call when they say and miss me when I'm gone (and say so). They make things just a little brighter. Unfortunately the amount of time I get to spend with friends is so minimal, it's sad.
Running is another high spot (most days). I feel as though I can run away almost any emotion that overpowers me. I've never really felt this way about running before and I imagine it'll only get better as I get in better and better shape. I'm up to 3 miles a day. That's pretty good.
Then there's my lj comms. And I adore them. I spend a good deal of time modding the comms and I believe it's appreciated for the most part. However, there are times when I just want to throw in the towel. It's so exhausting to deal with complaints about stupid things and way worse to deal with lj drama. Now, it's one thing to cause drama in an RPG because it belongs there and it's another to cause someone else to be stressed about it in real life. People are on here to have fun. There's no need for lots of rules or being mean or anything like that. Seriously, it really annoys me. I mean, what does it take for someone to bitch/make fun of another person they don't even really know via internet? SERIOUSLY people. Ugh.
Well, that's it for now. I have a meeting in a bit and then class after working all day... I'll survive, it's just burnout.
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GET WELL, KELLY! (seasonal allergies suck.... lol *kills fake doctor who gave you allergy medication and then laughs*)