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I don't get to go home for the holidays. It's utterly depressing. I don't really even like home that much, there's just something SO comforting about being at home and having that group of the same people around. I really think I'm just a little lonely at school. It's hard being here. I have a few friends but none that are really close. So it's sad. I felt this way at my undergrad school too. Until I really got to know a couple people. I just feel a little outcast being a grad student. I assume that in time it'll get better as I get to know everyone better. It doesn't help that the last two days I've had time to spend with people but none of my friends have had time. I've been really good about doing my work and I actually got ahead of my work (in a way) yesterday. So until tonight, I don't really have anything to do. I prefer to be busy.
I like to feel like I'm wanted somewhere. Like I'm missed. I know there are people out there who are missing me right now, but sometimes I don't know it. When you don't say how you feel ever, you can't just expect that people always know. Sometimes when things are a little rocky, you start to think everything is going bad. It's nice to have someone to tell you, "I really miss you. Here is just not the same without you." I miss that. I mean, I get it sometimes from some people, but other people never really say it unless I do. That's depressing. It makes me wonder if they're just saying it out of an obligation. So if you love someone, you should tell them. I've learned this lesson before the hard way, but I hope you don't ever have to. Don't assume someone will be there forever. Because they might not be. Don't take them for granted. If you love them, tell them. And if you're in love with them, tell them that too. No one should have to wonder how someone feels about them if the other person really does love them.
So, as per usual, I love you. You know who you are when I say this. You know who you are because I've said it, and probably recently. Because YOU deserve to know. I hope you feel the same way.
I like to feel like I'm wanted somewhere. Like I'm missed. I know there are people out there who are missing me right now, but sometimes I don't know it. When you don't say how you feel ever, you can't just expect that people always know. Sometimes when things are a little rocky, you start to think everything is going bad. It's nice to have someone to tell you, "I really miss you. Here is just not the same without you." I miss that. I mean, I get it sometimes from some people, but other people never really say it unless I do. That's depressing. It makes me wonder if they're just saying it out of an obligation. So if you love someone, you should tell them. I've learned this lesson before the hard way, but I hope you don't ever have to. Don't assume someone will be there forever. Because they might not be. Don't take them for granted. If you love them, tell them. And if you're in love with them, tell them that too. No one should have to wonder how someone feels about them if the other person really does love them.
So, as per usual, I love you. You know who you are when I say this. You know who you are because I've said it, and probably recently. Because YOU deserve to know. I hope you feel the same way.