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How do you know if someone really loves you? Well, I guess in all honesty, you never really do. You can say all the sweet, hopeless romantic things you want, the truth is that only that other person knows what they feel. It's disheartening to me to think of it that way, especially as I'm a hopeless romantic. However, there are those brief moments when you can look into someone's soul through their eyes. You catch them at the right moment and you know instantly what they feel for you. Some people refuse to admit to themselves how they feel or what they see in the other person's eyes. However, you still know. I think that's why I miss people so deeply when I'm not with them. Because being around someone alot allows for more of those moments. I think there's something amazing and moving about those moments. They reveal the truth. Despite all the lies we tell ourselves, all the things we're supposed to be, all the crap that clouds our hearts, those moments allow you to see how that person feels. You can lie to another person through your words and sometimes even your actions, but in those passing moments, you show nothing but the truth. It is impossible to lie at these moments and you can believe that because I know. In the past, when I wanted things to be something I knew they were not, I attempted to force those types of moments, but it was impossible. You cannot force feelings where there are none. You cannot force there to be more feelings when there are few. And, in those moments, you cannot lie about having feelings when there are some. I think that on some level, everyone is pretending. Maybe not all the time, but at any given time, all kinds of people are pretending. Pretending to be something their not. Pretending to agree with something they don't. Pretending to feel something they don't or pretending they don't feel something they do. I think the short glimpses of another's soul that we get in the moments where there is no pretending, no walls, no hiding are some of the best moments you didn't even know to dream of. Seeing someone for who they really are is a revelation at its least.