It's Official
I just reserved a truck and booked Sarah's flight back to Boston. It's official, I'm moving to Florida.
Hoo boy am I nervous. I know I'll have a great support system when I get to Florida, but I'm still scared to live this far away from my parents. Even though they haven't always been the most supportive people, they are a safety net and I don't feel bad about having to show up from time to time with my hat in my hands for grocery money. I can't see myself being comfortable doing that with Jenn and her family too many times.
Although to be fair, that's part of what drew me to such a drastic move. I'll have to stand on my own feet a bit better than what I've been doing so far. I'll have to. I'm turning twenty six on Saturday and I don't live all that differently from how I did when I was fifteen. I want to make a fresh start and behave like an independent adult. Moving seems like a good enough excuse for reinventing myself into an actual grown up (who writes academic papers on fictional gay characters and talks to her cats like they're people).
I've been entertaining the thought of changing my name. Not legally or anything, just playing with the idea of going by something other than Judith. Other than Jenn and her family, no one in Florida knows me. I could start over as anything. I could use my middle name instead, though I don't really like Marie that much. I'm most likely going to stick with Judith, as I do like my name, but it's just a fun thought I had.
Oh god am I going to miss my cats :(
Hoo boy am I nervous. I know I'll have a great support system when I get to Florida, but I'm still scared to live this far away from my parents. Even though they haven't always been the most supportive people, they are a safety net and I don't feel bad about having to show up from time to time with my hat in my hands for grocery money. I can't see myself being comfortable doing that with Jenn and her family too many times.
Although to be fair, that's part of what drew me to such a drastic move. I'll have to stand on my own feet a bit better than what I've been doing so far. I'll have to. I'm turning twenty six on Saturday and I don't live all that differently from how I did when I was fifteen. I want to make a fresh start and behave like an independent adult. Moving seems like a good enough excuse for reinventing myself into an actual grown up (who writes academic papers on fictional gay characters and talks to her cats like they're people).
I've been entertaining the thought of changing my name. Not legally or anything, just playing with the idea of going by something other than Judith. Other than Jenn and her family, no one in Florida knows me. I could start over as anything. I could use my middle name instead, though I don't really like Marie that much. I'm most likely going to stick with Judith, as I do like my name, but it's just a fun thought I had.
Oh god am I going to miss my cats :(