Making Sense of utter confusion
Back....After a brief Stint in which i did nothing but work cry and miss home all 2 often, i am trying to make sense of losing my best friend,and a close family member and missing my wonderful "Boyfriend?" i guess thars what i call him lol! Although we really havent made it offical, its kinda funny since Raul and I broke up i sorta shut off from everyone now for the first time since 02-03 i find myself in LOVE deep heartfelt scary LOVE and i guess im afraid that this one will end....i don't know its strange i know he loves me and i love him...and i know he is sick but what is he afraid of....im ready to ride or die to the fullest for him why can't he see? Why is he afraid??? He loves me so much...if he could only let go and say yea im sick he's not im 39 he's 22 but he's not gonna leave.its so simple to me. i dont understand.the way he looks at me says it all...and i see a future with him...but sometimes just sometimes i need to hear it
Brad
Brad