depressed...
So it is almost 1 in the morning and i have to work in 9 and a half hours.....and i cant sleep....so i am going to just spill everything i ahve in this journal entry so by 1:30 when i am done writing this i can sleep.
Ok where to begin. Work..work isnt to bad....i am getting use to the new ppl and becoming more myself around them. They seem to be very nice and considerate of my student status. I am scared of a few ppl but i think they'll warm up to me....lets hope. I will work thursdays in the school year so that means no ugly betty :( so i will have to tape it!!! I get happy when walking by the tree section....explanation only when asked... So yes i am very very happy with the $$$$$$$ i get from there!! It works out very well!!!
Possible Car situation
So my uncle Jimmy seems to have found a car for me....its a sea foam green 1995 ford taurus. So i will probably get that seeings the fact that dad is getting sick of me borrowing the cars!! Peter and UNcle JImmy are coming down for the car show so peter will drive it down then.
Friends...
Ok well.....to summ it up in one foul swoop....after a while a group of my "friends" decided to stop inviting my friend and I to do things and for two weeks we have been ditched on everything....they went to cedar point and everything so yeah we are really really hurt. More me because i care about them and i thought they cared about me....but i still care and want to stick with them and not burn bridges b4 senior year.... But things change and now my friend has found a guy and i feel alone again....but that might be the time of the month kicking in for me.
But being alone isnt foggy....i see it and it scares me to death....that is the only thing i am afraid of ...being alone.....and to tell you the truth....i dont think my friend cares.....idk im going crazy.
Family
Mom is doing great!!! Dad too!! He just got back from a trip to the cabin with cousins!! So yeah this weekend i am looking so forward too!! Its cousins weekend and the Spaulding "kids" are finally getting back together!!! So yeah that will be a good chance to get away from everything!! Yes!!
Dogs and Cats
I have a bizzzlion dog and cat sitting jobs and they all piled on this past weekend and we only had one car b/c dad was away! And i had to work so mom did alot for me!!! So i am thankful!!!!
Apology
I apologize for boring you people reading this....you probably think i need help...... well you try listening to christmas music every monday tuesday and everyother weekend!!!
I feel like shit...i'm depressed....and i need love.....help me......
em
Ok where to begin. Work..work isnt to bad....i am getting use to the new ppl and becoming more myself around them. They seem to be very nice and considerate of my student status. I am scared of a few ppl but i think they'll warm up to me....lets hope. I will work thursdays in the school year so that means no ugly betty :( so i will have to tape it!!! I get happy when walking by the tree section....explanation only when asked... So yes i am very very happy with the $$$$$$$ i get from there!! It works out very well!!!
Possible Car situation
So my uncle Jimmy seems to have found a car for me....its a sea foam green 1995 ford taurus. So i will probably get that seeings the fact that dad is getting sick of me borrowing the cars!! Peter and UNcle JImmy are coming down for the car show so peter will drive it down then.
Friends...
Ok well.....to summ it up in one foul swoop....after a while a group of my "friends" decided to stop inviting my friend and I to do things and for two weeks we have been ditched on everything....they went to cedar point and everything so yeah we are really really hurt. More me because i care about them and i thought they cared about me....but i still care and want to stick with them and not burn bridges b4 senior year.... But things change and now my friend has found a guy and i feel alone again....but that might be the time of the month kicking in for me.
But being alone isnt foggy....i see it and it scares me to death....that is the only thing i am afraid of ...being alone.....and to tell you the truth....i dont think my friend cares.....idk im going crazy.
Family
Mom is doing great!!! Dad too!! He just got back from a trip to the cabin with cousins!! So yeah this weekend i am looking so forward too!! Its cousins weekend and the Spaulding "kids" are finally getting back together!!! So yeah that will be a good chance to get away from everything!! Yes!!
Dogs and Cats
I have a bizzzlion dog and cat sitting jobs and they all piled on this past weekend and we only had one car b/c dad was away! And i had to work so mom did alot for me!!! So i am thankful!!!!
Apology
I apologize for boring you people reading this....you probably think i need help...... well you try listening to christmas music every monday tuesday and everyother weekend!!!
I feel like shit...i'm depressed....and i need love.....help me......
em