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so basically I've been feeling like real shit sense yesterday. Ever sense we went to the mall yesterday and I was trying on clothes and everything I felt like shit and cant get rid of this feeling of disgust when I look in the mirror. Today really topped it off I was getting a haircut and I didn't know what to with it because my family was basically telling me I looked like shit the other day. And I was just looking at the mirror the entire time while getting a haircut and thinking how unattractive I was. I just wanted to smash the mirror! Ahhg. And I basically was just really depressed. I mean I never feel this way. It was just these past couple of days. I dont know whats wrong with me. I know it's dumb. Maybe it's all the pictures that were taken during camp and how gross I look. I just didn't think I looked that bad.
But Keera made me feel really good because tonight I a mental breakdown and just felt like tearing everything apart. So I talked to Keera on-line and she said lets go out so we did. And we went to Lena's it was good times. But I feel a little bit better. It's just I donno. And I guess it could be that I keep seeing all my friends getting into relationships and i'm like happy for them dont get me wrong I'm just jealous.
So I guess I'm just being retarded. If you guys feel uncomfortable by this entry you dont have to leave a comment.
But Keera made me feel really good because tonight I a mental breakdown and just felt like tearing everything apart. So I talked to Keera on-line and she said lets go out so we did. And we went to Lena's it was good times. But I feel a little bit better. It's just I donno. And I guess it could be that I keep seeing all my friends getting into relationships and i'm like happy for them dont get me wrong I'm just jealous.
So I guess I'm just being retarded. If you guys feel uncomfortable by this entry you dont have to leave a comment.