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[deftones_soad]

I wrote this a few days ago.....

Inebriated Love

I layed there
The night before is a lost memory
Not one that I will soon forget
You would only show me this energy
When you were well gone

I will wake long before you
In an unnatural slumber
Beautiful with your eyes moving
I know your dreaming

And i layed there
you devouring me
Knowing the very chemical reason
I stayed with you and layed down with you
and kissed and said the very words
of the heart while i was still
very much here

I will wake long before you
In an unnatural slumber
Beautiful with your eyes moving
I know your dreaming
guess I was too

And I layed there when you grabbed my hand
I loved it but I know I should let it go
My hand lay in entropy as I wielded it
out of your passed out grip and I tried
oh how i tried to not get back on the
temporary joy ride, but I couldnt help it
and I held you again in a lost memory
Not one that I will soon forget

And I wrote this yesturday....

Annoying Itch

Im tired of being yelled at
I want to leave
with out a trace
no one will know
not even me
like the wind flowing freely
thats how i want to be
I bite my lip in anger and sorrow
out pours a liquified rose
all my good intensions
washed away
because i am worthless
because i am stupid
because i am lazy
because i am ugly
because no one should bne cursed with the likes of me
this world is better off without me
I wish I were the bird that wakes you in the morning
but instead i be the mosquito that flys in at night
bites then wakes you in the morning with an annoying itch
because thats all i ever am and thats all ill ever be

I havent been feeling too good, ehh. fuck it.

I learned Interstate Love Song by Stone Temple Pilots, good jam.

Theres a place where lovers go to cry thier troubles away and they call it lonesome town where the broken heart stays.