Being The Worst
The only one who thinks the grass looks greener on the other side for you is me. I've never told anyone except Ericka, but I feel totally unworthy for her. I feel like I've hurt her so much that I can hardly make her happy. Everytime I see her smile I take it for granted. Her happiness means so much to me and when she says I make her happy I rarely believe her. I feel like I've been an asshole more than sweet. That gets me in a ryhthm really. I'm not as confident as I should be. I need to forgive my past. How do I do that? I felt like she's changed me so much that...I've changed myself haven't I? I'm tired of feeling sorry for what I've done. I want to be the best. I can do that