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I just woke up from the deepest 12 hours of sleep iv had in years.. much needed and much appreciated
The only thing is, im sad now, cuz i had one of them dreams that leave you depressed
In the dream, me and my brother moved to a dorm at KU, much like the one Kathy used to have before she moved back.
Me and Kathy drifted apart when she went off to college for that one semister and at the same time i got with Rachael.
She hates me for the whole thing, and she cant be blamed, and i wish i could sort the things out in my head so i could tell her this isnt how i want it to be.
Id try to call her and talk to her about it, but it seems every time i DO talk to her i feel like im just lying and that ill never truely be the same person i used to be.
Yes, im a fucked up person, she was one of my best friends and i just dropped her when she was away for a while. Maybe my crush on her was more intense than i really knew if i didnt feel like i needed her anymore after Rachael.
But the friendship is something ill always miss, and the fact that she took me off her Friends-Only list kills me, but its totally understood.
In the beggining i did that to her first, just in real life.
If you do happen to read my journal anymore, know i AM sorry and i dont forget you..
The only thing is, im sad now, cuz i had one of them dreams that leave you depressed
In the dream, me and my brother moved to a dorm at KU, much like the one Kathy used to have before she moved back.
Me and Kathy drifted apart when she went off to college for that one semister and at the same time i got with Rachael.
She hates me for the whole thing, and she cant be blamed, and i wish i could sort the things out in my head so i could tell her this isnt how i want it to be.
Id try to call her and talk to her about it, but it seems every time i DO talk to her i feel like im just lying and that ill never truely be the same person i used to be.
Yes, im a fucked up person, she was one of my best friends and i just dropped her when she was away for a while. Maybe my crush on her was more intense than i really knew if i didnt feel like i needed her anymore after Rachael.
But the friendship is something ill always miss, and the fact that she took me off her Friends-Only list kills me, but its totally understood.
In the beggining i did that to her first, just in real life.
If you do happen to read my journal anymore, know i AM sorry and i dont forget you..