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[defntlyntvanila]

i want to push everybody away and be alone
hide out.
i don't think i'll be missed
its not hard to miss somebody you can't see
i want to be invisible
and considering my mass that will be impossible
feel horrible
my head might explode
just don't want to be around anymore
make decisions
you decide
what should i be doing?
everyone else knows
why can't i?
when no one knows you does it really matter?
could lie
could pretend to change
but really it'll only make them feel better
not change whats inside
am i that complicated
or is it easier just not to care?
you said you don't care
thats what i want
if you forget about me it'll be easier
don't want your guilt
or your hopes or dreams
don't want to cling
want to push
and be separate
wallow in loneliness
languish in dispair
be comfortably numb
when you don't think you don't feel
feel everything and nothing
the oldest and the youngest 22 yr old you ever met
feel 75 and 12 at the same time
lost in translation
unknown to man