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[defntlyntvanila]

Layers
I want to put as many layers between myself and life as I possibly can
layers of clothes
layers of sarcasm
layers of disdain
layers of fake smiles
layers of fat
layers of half truths
layers of evasion
layers of humor
layers of pathetic yearnings
of romantic ideals
of small sadness
of selfish disgust
of self righeousness
of rampant inadequacies
I don't want to peel them back and get to the rawness
Hidden deep with in the layers
keep away from the skin
from the heart
understanding why i don't let people touch me
it hurts and it shows a type of closeness that is uncomfortable