no return
Theres alot of snow around here. Too much, but I trudged my ass off to school today- even though I was betting that no one wasn't going to be there- boy I was wrong because the library is packed.
This weekend was the first time i didn't have any homework. it was nice. So i worked and came home and did nothing and didn't have to worry too much about anything. I bet my roommate classes are cancelled too.
I've been doing some realy thinking. I figure if any offer came up to go away anywhere, I would go. No matter if Gregg and I were still together. I think I deserve to get awayt from all this.
last week I was supposed to have a appointment with the psychologist at the school but I got the days so confused that I ended up being a day late- and I ended up calling Sonja and freaking on her and almost cried. I really think I need it.
last night was probably the worst because I wasn't sure exactly what Gregg's up to...ever since that christmas incident ive become more careful about how much trust I put on him... I remember one line he said on msn "Now anything I say youre not going to believe me"..,sure, he's right. Im probably not going to believe him anymore...its sad just how much trust i have for him...
im gonna go to the gym today because i couldn't stnad it, being at home and for once not being active...oh dear.
CAT STEVENS- FATHER AND SON
This Cat Stevens song is so beautifully written- every time i hear it I just want to cry (all the times That Ive cried...if they were right, id agree, but its them they know, not me). its a sad thing, crying over song lyrics that are just free flowing ideas from an artist. I just listen way too much to music and I think too much about what they say. i hate when people say that "its deep". because its always been that way for any song, no matter which way its written...evey song lyric has always been deep...from System of a Down to Cat Stevens to Christina Aguilera...i feel really strongly about this song because I think its so truthful that its almost to the point that I feel like I could definitely agree with what he says...
"and there's a way, and I know, I have to go away..."
This weekend was the first time i didn't have any homework. it was nice. So i worked and came home and did nothing and didn't have to worry too much about anything. I bet my roommate classes are cancelled too.
I've been doing some realy thinking. I figure if any offer came up to go away anywhere, I would go. No matter if Gregg and I were still together. I think I deserve to get awayt from all this.
last week I was supposed to have a appointment with the psychologist at the school but I got the days so confused that I ended up being a day late- and I ended up calling Sonja and freaking on her and almost cried. I really think I need it.
last night was probably the worst because I wasn't sure exactly what Gregg's up to...ever since that christmas incident ive become more careful about how much trust I put on him... I remember one line he said on msn "Now anything I say youre not going to believe me"..,sure, he's right. Im probably not going to believe him anymore...its sad just how much trust i have for him...
im gonna go to the gym today because i couldn't stnad it, being at home and for once not being active...oh dear.
CAT STEVENS- FATHER AND SON
This Cat Stevens song is so beautifully written- every time i hear it I just want to cry (all the times That Ive cried...if they were right, id agree, but its them they know, not me). its a sad thing, crying over song lyrics that are just free flowing ideas from an artist. I just listen way too much to music and I think too much about what they say. i hate when people say that "its deep". because its always been that way for any song, no matter which way its written...evey song lyric has always been deep...from System of a Down to Cat Stevens to Christina Aguilera...i feel really strongly about this song because I think its so truthful that its almost to the point that I feel like I could definitely agree with what he says...
"and there's a way, and I know, I have to go away..."