i feel like a medical patient every time my head hits my pillow.

[definetlylulu]

I drive back from work in my beat up car (compliments of a stranger) take off my shoes, leave them in the car, open my door, say hello/give a kiss to my dog that looks up at my like i am the most amazing thing in the world, walk in to my kitchen, grab something to drink, pour myself in to bed, put something on the television, watch a movie or read something, forget where my computer is, exchange text messages for the last time before bed and for a brief moment my disappointment in myself overwhelms me... i breathe.. i let it go.. i fall asleep in fetal position.

i have nothing.