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Feb 14, 2005 00:09

i feel dried up. not just physicaly, but mentally too. why do i seem to always think what i do is so called "right", and why do i let myself always fall for the ones i know that i could never have? someone please answer me this. i feel like im all used up, and this is sad because im not even 19 yet and i still havent found what im looking for. i cant make my mind up on nething to save my life. i dont know why, mentally, i am still at the same place i was a year ago. i really just need to grow up and face the facts, that maybe what i am doing isnt always gonna be the "right" thing to do. maybe i should just go back to just being "normal". im tired of being just all talk with no action, beacaue that only makes me a coward. maybe i just need to put my money where my mouth is and just practice what i preach. but its alot easier said then done.
iv'e been writing so much lately. remembering old times and wishing for the new ones to bloom. but just maybe im not ready for the new ones yet. and hopefully all this crap is a sign that im not.

Happy Valentines Day to all. and may urs be as joyous as mine
tj
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