this a story i wrote last night
All I Want is You
As the pen hits the paper to write another requiem in your honor
I think to myself all times I felt loved, when in your arms
And I realize there’s not a word to describe the turmoil I have made for myself
The bed I have made is filled with thorns and broken glass covered in a blanket of hopes and dreams
This is where I lay me head
This is where I am laid to rest
This is where you fall,
Safety with no distress
I feel as though all that was lost was more than just a gain
But a prize awarded only to the faithful at heart
Death creeps by but watches with a close eye
To see if I have enough stregnth to fail once again
I put my head down on the table and just close my eyes
But the portrait of your face is burning in my head with fear and desire
It cripples me at the thought of u with another
But just come to realize that would be another and another after that
It’s like the plague, racing through by veins killing off any inhibitions that may be present
Warding off any sign of hope, I stumble for my demise
Longing for that one last breath, to tell you I love you
I feel my mind start to erupt as the tears turn to blood
Rushing off my brow I feel my heart beating faster and faster
As the pain forces its way through my lungs towards my heart
I can only feel the warn sensation of guilt running up and down my spine
As my lungs forcefully collapse, I can see my life starting to slip away
My eyes can no longer be controlled by human movement
They are slowly sinking back into my head
In my mind I can see my thoughts and dreams being erased like chalk on a board
One after another after another……..They’re all gone
I am now gasping for air but there is none
I feel myself fading deeper and deeper
I only wish I could touch your hand once more and feel the loving hatred once again
As I fell towards the floor, it disapeared leaving only darkness all around me
I regained sight just long enough to realize it wasn’t darkness around me,
It was darkness inside of me.
As I fell further and further it seemed endless
I was neither live nor dead but unable to function
All of a sudden there was a flash of light
And this light took me to a place I had never known
It was a place only talked about in books
A place where there was only land as far as the eye could see
And the trees were in bloom, and all the plants and ……………..
It all of a sudden got dark, the dark clouds rolled in the lightning and thunder cried
And all that was once full of life was now dead
I couldn’t understand what was happening
I didn’t know why it was happening
Then before another thought could come into my mind
A radiant beam of light blinded me with its rays
I tried to cover my face but still was unable to open my eyes
I turned and started running but it just grew stronger
Still unable to see I shouted, "what is this?"
With no answer I began to yell and scream
Until a voice that stretched all around me
Started saying in a low monotone voice "I am the WAY, the TRUTH, and the LIGHT."
The voice was so powerful, I froze in my tracks
"Do Not Be Afraid, I Am With You Always" it said to me
I was about to ask who it was but before I could get it out it vanished
Deep down inside I knew who it was.
As I felt so ashamed I fell on my face and cried out,
"God……God, I can’t do this alone…IM not able to do this alone…I…ii…i..Need you."
As the words came out of my mouth,
I felt a hand on my shoulder
As I raised my head in shock to see who it was
It was man with a white robe and holes in his hands and his feet
I was in awe
I didn’t know what to do so I just dropped to my knees once again
With my face, facing the ground I felt the hand on my shoulder once again
And as I looked up this time the mans arms were stretched out waiting for me to run into them
As the tears rolled down my face I rose to my feet and ran into the arms of our All-mighty God
Another flash of light occurred
But this time it brought me back to the table where I was sitting with my head down
As I woke up I felt that void in my heart was filled
I felt renewed
It felt as though my pain was no longer mine but his
I was now a new man
No longer gripped around the neck by life and all its struggles
But free to experience all that life has to offer
With my pen and paper still in front of me
I no longer felt inclined to right about the doings one had done on me
But felt like writing about the doing one place in my heart for others
So with the words flowing through my mind
I scribbled over the existing title and right above it wrote……….
I Am Yours
i hope u guys liked it. tell me what u think
tj