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yesterday was definitely busy. i think i've managed to get everything taken care of, the house is in good enough shape that i'll be able to fix up the last little bit after i get back, before my mom gets home.
i seriously hate packing. i dont know why, it just stressed meout. i've realized that's why i brought so much crap to school last year, because i get so worried that i'm going to forget something or want something that i've left that i just bring everything. i'm embarassed by how full my little suitcase is, when i'm going to be there for three nights. oh well.
i'm not looking forward to opening. it's sooo boring, you just stand around in a daze for hours. and i've been working nothing but five hour shifts lately, so a seven hour is going to seem like forever. at least i know that as soon as i'm done i can head off to austin. well, after i stop for gas.
i ate dinner with my dad last night and we had a really good talk about the whole chris thing. i didn't realize that i hadn't let him in on what i've been thinking or feeling, which explains some of his reactions to things i've done (ie, getting chris a job at kohl's). i could tell that he was so happy for me and really proud of all that i've done, and how i've been handling everything. he just had this big smile on his face as i talked about how excited i am about my life now, for the first time that i can ever remember. and i know that for a long time he's seen the way i've handled myself, and he's relieved taht i'm finally correcting the mistakes i've made, like defining who i am and revolving my happiness/self esteem around a relationship.
well, i suppose i should go finish getting ready. AAAGH, AUSTIN TODAYYY!!!
i seriously hate packing. i dont know why, it just stressed meout. i've realized that's why i brought so much crap to school last year, because i get so worried that i'm going to forget something or want something that i've left that i just bring everything. i'm embarassed by how full my little suitcase is, when i'm going to be there for three nights. oh well.
i'm not looking forward to opening. it's sooo boring, you just stand around in a daze for hours. and i've been working nothing but five hour shifts lately, so a seven hour is going to seem like forever. at least i know that as soon as i'm done i can head off to austin. well, after i stop for gas.
i ate dinner with my dad last night and we had a really good talk about the whole chris thing. i didn't realize that i hadn't let him in on what i've been thinking or feeling, which explains some of his reactions to things i've done (ie, getting chris a job at kohl's). i could tell that he was so happy for me and really proud of all that i've done, and how i've been handling everything. he just had this big smile on his face as i talked about how excited i am about my life now, for the first time that i can ever remember. and i know that for a long time he's seen the way i've handled myself, and he's relieved taht i'm finally correcting the mistakes i've made, like defining who i am and revolving my happiness/self esteem around a relationship.
well, i suppose i should go finish getting ready. AAAGH, AUSTIN TODAYYY!!!