time doesn't heal all wounds....
Have you ever tried to not think about something and then in the end thats all you end up thinking about. i hate it when that happens.
it has happened all day today. I purposely made my self extremely busy by scheduling alot of stuff and putting off doing work so i was running around to get it done, but it didn't help.
my mother died 11 years ago today and i can't help but think about everything that i have missed out on and will continue to miss out on. I know that she wasn't nearly the best person in the world and she didn't treat me the best either but the truth is i still wish i had her here with me. she will never get to see me get married, share old family recipes, watch her grandchildren grow, or even give me advice that i can ignore. i understand death and i accept it. I even encourage death over suffering but in the end it still sucks for those who love the person.
it has happened all day today. I purposely made my self extremely busy by scheduling alot of stuff and putting off doing work so i was running around to get it done, but it didn't help.
my mother died 11 years ago today and i can't help but think about everything that i have missed out on and will continue to miss out on. I know that she wasn't nearly the best person in the world and she didn't treat me the best either but the truth is i still wish i had her here with me. she will never get to see me get married, share old family recipes, watch her grandchildren grow, or even give me advice that i can ignore. i understand death and i accept it. I even encourage death over suffering but in the end it still sucks for those who love the person.