Discontent.
I've never felt such a feeling of discontent as I do now.
I've felt a lot of things... a LOT of things.
Ranging from the highest of the high to the lowest of the low.
Right now I'm just so stressed. Period.
My future is on the balance right here and its swaying in the wind of uncertainty.
I'm not making enough money to pay bills and I may even HAVE to sell my car and deal without one for awhile.
I'm not making money. I'm unhappy. I'm stuck.
I hate this feeling of uncertainty.
I'm well aware of life being full of uncertainties, but never has so much been on the line.
It doesn't help that my loans are taking FOREVER to process.
I really hope that this transfer and temp move works.
I really wanna make take that step so I can enjoy my last days down here.
I want to be close to my friends, the ones I care about.
I don't want to feel lost, stuck, alone.
I want to end my life in South Florida with a bang.
I just can NOT stand the stress anymore.
I want to move on and know that everything is going to work out.
I have so many goals, but in this world focused so much on who has the most money, I sometimes doubt I'll be able to do the things I want to do.
Not just for me, but for others too.
Money = Evil.
I have to end this rant now.
My thoughts are so random and slurred that if I continue it won't make any sense.
I'm not even sure all of it up to this point has made any sense.
I just want my friends to know how much I cherish them.
How much they mean to me.
There are some that have meant more than others, but I won't name them just because I don't want to bring down the importance of another friendship in the process.
I'm just so discontent.