...and as her beautiful, angel-embraced head tumbles to the floor..
yes that subject is from this new metal song i wrote called new face, ive been on a roll lately. I love being in a metal band and writing metal lyrics, austin told me the other day he thought i was really good at writing. that just about made my day. So just in case y'all are interested-heres the whole thing: `This crooked human face tied in knots and gashed on one side. I’ve `decided to make over my whole persona. As the blue light comes `shining down, we are stressed to look our best, as we are told. `Mrs. Media is watching. I will hang her from the clearance rack, and `as she chokes to death on her words of wisdom to our youth, and her `flawless, angel-embraced head tumbles to the floor, I will mutter `to her, “Okay darling, you can now take off that- `disgusting- `repulsive- `decapitated Halloween mask." Yeah so there you go. Its about peoples perceptions of beauty and how the media is fucking up peoples lives by telling them how they should look and act. Few people are actually living as individuals. So monday nothing really happened at all so ill skip to today. In case you guys didnt know me and jina wouldve basically "been together" (if you count the on/off) for 4 months, one third of a year. And im not regretting one day of it as of now. but anyways when the 18th rolled around (which is today) we were supposed to hang out and basically have like the best day ever between us. I cleared out everything at least a week in advance to be with her today. today was supposed to be the perfect day. A Fort. Honey. A few minutes maybe hours alone. To just look at whats all happened and how great its been and how we were there right then. I guess her horoscope called today her love day and lucky day. Instead today hardly brought a smile or a word. It would have been the perfect day.I wish she would have told me in advance that we couldnt do anything, but i guess she just checked her calendar late or whatnot. Anyways, it didnt work out again. Im not saying theres not other days, but theres something about one third of a year that makes me feel like we have something very special. I know were not going out or whatever, but i guess jina planned to and ended up making out with nick hoerig. It just kinda makes me sad cuz i just found out today. Again, it would have been the perfect day. Im not overly dissapointed or anything tho, i kinda had a bad feeling. I didnt get my hopes up which is good. ah and i didnt even get a hug or a goodbye or an ill call ya when she left today. Kinda like alot of days where its like sorry dan i cant do anything today~oh hey annette you wanna come over today? ha i know thats totally different with her mom and stuff but its so weird at first ha. No worries. JINA- I love you. We are going to relive this day better a different day. Its not your fault, dont worry its okay. dont worry about it. ```So today i went to brians. All we did was like play guitar, i wanted to be with jina the whole time. Yeah it was okay but we were all tired and it was pretty uneventful. Every minute i would just wish for jina to be with me so i could hold her, maybe if it was just one more night. I thought about how right around that time 4 months ago she gave me an ecstatic call and asked to be with me. It was one of best decisions ive made. Thank you jina. I DONT REGRET A DAY OF IT! EVERYONE PROBABLY THINKS IM NUTS FOR BEING THIS CRAZY ABOUT YOU BUT I DONT CARE, I DONT WANT THINGS EVER TO CHANGE! I MEAN THIS COMPLETELY SINCERELY.
So back to the light-er shit, i want to hang out with ben sometime, record another song, skate, skate, skate alot, have practice with austin and jake, and hang out with jessi soon. Oh and i talked to jessi, apparently she still has my breathalizer and has this awesome picture of her smoking it. ROCK ON! I guess i hardly know her, but i have a good feeling, she seems extremely awesome. We're gonna hang out soon and possibly get all wet in the rain. Yeah i wore my fucking vans on accident today so i couldnt skate for shit, i tried the st marys 5 and just about killed my ankles, and killed the one with the brace that im getting tendonitis in twice as hard. Damn. Yeah, im kinda sad now. gotta go skate or run or im not sure, think about skating, start a storm maybe. im outta here folks.
Enjoy-
Have fun-
Fuck.-
Love Dan