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I wrote this in here a little while ago, not knowing what to expect of the relationship I've falled into. Funny thing is looking back at how I viewed the relationship then, I never expected it to last this long. But it did. Now one thing is true about this piece that I wrote. Amanda and I can destroy each other. We will destroy each other. And it hurts like hell to say that because there has never been a girl like her in my life. I know it's hard to think about that, there are hundreds of girls like her, right? And I've had quite a few girlfriends. But not her... So just listen. Sadly, I know that we are doomed to hurt each other and she knows it as well. But we're willing to stay with each other for as long as we have together, not knowing if when we leave that she will remain my best friend and I hers. What do you call that when 2 people care enough about each other to know that hurt will come but it doesn't matter as long as the moments they had left were amazing? Is that crazy? Is it foolish? Is it a terrible thing to want to spend as much time with her until we fall apart? Is it worth the pain after it ends? What do you call that?
"For every kiss I've given I believe a portion of my soul has been delivered to the door of some young girl's mind. Sadly, most young girls I've kissed got a piece of me I wish they hadn't received due to the fact that I had no intension of giving them anything other than a kiss. What is a kiss anyways? What makes a kiss something worth giving? The kisses I've given have been spontaneously irrational and caused more damage in the end than good. For once a kiss is brought forth a feeling of commitment is drawn into pattern and customary to put into practice. Unfortunately, I haven't felt committed to past girls I've kissed, though, I wish I had so I wouldn't have hurt them. Although, lately I've found the girl I'm currently drawn to and kissing is somewhat different than before. I'm sure you think, "He tells that to every girl he finds himself with." But to be completely honest, I hate saying such things. It scares me to give out such a bold statement due to the fact that I now lay in wake of being destroyed by this girl and that I too can destroy her. Its frightening to say, but this girl seems to mean more to me than life itself. I'm beginning to feel my time grows thin in this place, hopefully I'm wrong, but I know that in moments with her, what happens in time and space loses substance and are no longer factors. I hope that if and when my time ends she finds out, if we're still in touch or not, how much I really cared about her. One day she'll know and everything she's been afraid of saying will be drawn to the surface regardless of if she likes it or not. But if I'm still here, those things she and I want to say to each other won't hurt us. I believe this because I've seen what we've walked through together thus far. Maybe...or maybe I'm just being foolish. Maybe this all ends terribly, the way my pessimistic thoughts have pictured it. If thats how it ends then I hope my kisses give her a portion of me. I want her to have it because I never want her to forget me. And if I've forgotten her then let that God of mine that I've grown so far from cast me to hell because forgetting her would be the most foolish thing of all. Let time, the one thing I compete with now more than ever, show me where I need to go."
What do you call that???
"For every kiss I've given I believe a portion of my soul has been delivered to the door of some young girl's mind. Sadly, most young girls I've kissed got a piece of me I wish they hadn't received due to the fact that I had no intension of giving them anything other than a kiss. What is a kiss anyways? What makes a kiss something worth giving? The kisses I've given have been spontaneously irrational and caused more damage in the end than good. For once a kiss is brought forth a feeling of commitment is drawn into pattern and customary to put into practice. Unfortunately, I haven't felt committed to past girls I've kissed, though, I wish I had so I wouldn't have hurt them. Although, lately I've found the girl I'm currently drawn to and kissing is somewhat different than before. I'm sure you think, "He tells that to every girl he finds himself with." But to be completely honest, I hate saying such things. It scares me to give out such a bold statement due to the fact that I now lay in wake of being destroyed by this girl and that I too can destroy her. Its frightening to say, but this girl seems to mean more to me than life itself. I'm beginning to feel my time grows thin in this place, hopefully I'm wrong, but I know that in moments with her, what happens in time and space loses substance and are no longer factors. I hope that if and when my time ends she finds out, if we're still in touch or not, how much I really cared about her. One day she'll know and everything she's been afraid of saying will be drawn to the surface regardless of if she likes it or not. But if I'm still here, those things she and I want to say to each other won't hurt us. I believe this because I've seen what we've walked through together thus far. Maybe...or maybe I'm just being foolish. Maybe this all ends terribly, the way my pessimistic thoughts have pictured it. If thats how it ends then I hope my kisses give her a portion of me. I want her to have it because I never want her to forget me. And if I've forgotten her then let that God of mine that I've grown so far from cast me to hell because forgetting her would be the most foolish thing of all. Let time, the one thing I compete with now more than ever, show me where I need to go."
What do you call that???