End of the quarter
Today is officially the end of the fall quarter, my first 'official quarter' at Stanford, I suppose. I still remember the days when the singular thought of stepping foot into this campus would set me into waves of uncontrollable paranoia and anxiety. Silliness is something that you never quite shake off even with the passing of years, and neither is my tendency to underestimate everything I do. I suppose it would be preferable to having reality thrust into your face at every turn - the reality of never being able to accomplish certain things no matter how hard you try.
Enough with the depressing philosophical babble - truth may remain truth, but by no means do I have to be tied down by it. It is with complete honesty that I say I enjoyed my life here to the fullest - obviously I'm not a social butterfly who gets back to the dorm at 4am every day and attends 3 parties per week on average, and I don't want to be - but I have made wonderful friends nonetheless. I love them all dearly, and the thought of some of them graduating within next year saddens me - yet their jobs are only 30 minutes away, and they're staying in an apartment around the area. I'm confident that we could maintain our relationship.
Academic-wise, Stanford had been suitably challenging, but still nowhere near enough to make me pull all-nighters. I suppose that will change when the harder core CS courses roll around. I think I've finally begun to see a path before me in life that will not end with me in a cardboard box, but life is in a constant state of flux, Moira's whims overseeing all.
And now I am simply cleaning out the room that has become my home for the past three months. Making sure everything is in place for safety inspections, cleaning out the trash can...(which I've done roughly once per month. Ain't that great.) Seeing my friends and saying 'see you next year' paradoxically brings me hopes for a new beginning and resignation for this temporary ending, yet I honestly feel quite accomplished and at ease with everything that's passed me by in this quarter. I'm really looking forward to seeing my parents again and spending the new years' with my grandfather - I believe the feeling is suitably reciprocated. Not to mention all my old friends from high school...I wonder what sort of legends have they managed to create for themselves during the past three months?
(And then I'll get to see seikochan back home and we'll stuff ourselves with gongcha and food and laurant-craziness and marine animals)
Enough with the depressing philosophical babble - truth may remain truth, but by no means do I have to be tied down by it. It is with complete honesty that I say I enjoyed my life here to the fullest - obviously I'm not a social butterfly who gets back to the dorm at 4am every day and attends 3 parties per week on average, and I don't want to be - but I have made wonderful friends nonetheless. I love them all dearly, and the thought of some of them graduating within next year saddens me - yet their jobs are only 30 minutes away, and they're staying in an apartment around the area. I'm confident that we could maintain our relationship.
Academic-wise, Stanford had been suitably challenging, but still nowhere near enough to make me pull all-nighters. I suppose that will change when the harder core CS courses roll around. I think I've finally begun to see a path before me in life that will not end with me in a cardboard box, but life is in a constant state of flux, Moira's whims overseeing all.
And now I am simply cleaning out the room that has become my home for the past three months. Making sure everything is in place for safety inspections, cleaning out the trash can...(which I've done roughly once per month. Ain't that great.) Seeing my friends and saying 'see you next year' paradoxically brings me hopes for a new beginning and resignation for this temporary ending, yet I honestly feel quite accomplished and at ease with everything that's passed me by in this quarter. I'm really looking forward to seeing my parents again and spending the new years' with my grandfather - I believe the feeling is suitably reciprocated. Not to mention all my old friends from high school...I wonder what sort of legends have they managed to create for themselves during the past three months?
(And then I'll get to see seikochan back home and we'll stuff ourselves with gongcha and food and laurant-craziness and marine animals)