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i feel weird.
i haven't felt social all year. i don't want to hang out with people. i just want to sit at home and do nothing. i don't care. i don't really feel inclined to go out and establish human connection. i know that's weird, but i just don't. i've been too busy lately and all i want to do at the end of the day is sleep. i haven't even talked to my mom in 3 or 4 weeks, which is weird. i was so exhausted today that after i had only been up 2 hours for class, i came home and went to sleep and slept for another 7 hours....
i've just been zooming through this semester. so much crap going on. a bagillion classes. a bagillion after-school assignments to do and things to attend. all my stupid eye appointments so they can figure out my retina problem...which they haven't figured out anything by the way. it's just frustrating and exhausting. all of it.
yeah, i know this isn't a happy post.... blah blah. i'm sorry. i don't feel like typing a happy post.
plus, jeff and i basically never hang out anymore. it's lame. when we do get to hang out, it's only for a bit and i feel like we are just there. both of us are busy and it sucks. we get to hang out on the weekends, but even then, i'm exhausted or whatever. i hate feeling distant from everyone, but i do.
yeah, you say i should just get out of there and do stuff and go out with people, but really, i don't have any time, energy, or drive to do so.
i just want the semester to be over, but then again, i really i don't because then i have to deal with another whole monster in itself. :( this summer is going to be hard, and i'm not looking forward to it really. guess i'll get through it, but still super lame.
-d.
i haven't felt social all year. i don't want to hang out with people. i just want to sit at home and do nothing. i don't care. i don't really feel inclined to go out and establish human connection. i know that's weird, but i just don't. i've been too busy lately and all i want to do at the end of the day is sleep. i haven't even talked to my mom in 3 or 4 weeks, which is weird. i was so exhausted today that after i had only been up 2 hours for class, i came home and went to sleep and slept for another 7 hours....
i've just been zooming through this semester. so much crap going on. a bagillion classes. a bagillion after-school assignments to do and things to attend. all my stupid eye appointments so they can figure out my retina problem...which they haven't figured out anything by the way. it's just frustrating and exhausting. all of it.
yeah, i know this isn't a happy post.... blah blah. i'm sorry. i don't feel like typing a happy post.
plus, jeff and i basically never hang out anymore. it's lame. when we do get to hang out, it's only for a bit and i feel like we are just there. both of us are busy and it sucks. we get to hang out on the weekends, but even then, i'm exhausted or whatever. i hate feeling distant from everyone, but i do.
yeah, you say i should just get out of there and do stuff and go out with people, but really, i don't have any time, energy, or drive to do so.
i just want the semester to be over, but then again, i really i don't because then i have to deal with another whole monster in itself. :( this summer is going to be hard, and i'm not looking forward to it really. guess i'll get through it, but still super lame.
-d.