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hey. this week off from school was awesome. today was ok, i just went to the mall with my mom and sisters. i saw ashley<33 haha that was so funny when you kicked my butt, i had no clue who it was. i didn't really get anything except for this cool pink with yellow spots rug for my bathroom. sounds weird, and yeah it looks weird too, but i like it. it doesn't go that well with my bathroom but that's ok. i hate my bathroom, it's decorated so ugly. my room now, used to be my parents, so most of my mom's shit is still in the bathroom and she won't let me take it down. so each week i take something down and stick it underneath the sink, i don't think she'll notice. she rarely goes in there. one more day then school *sigh* i'm really not looking forward to going to school on monday. wanna know why? for 3rd and 4th quarter, i'm taking law and the individual, and guess who the teacher is? mr. lukan. yeah so for the next 2 quarters i have to sit in class with that whack job 2 periods in a row, because i have social studies with him 2nd period, and then law and the individual 3rd. i think lee's going to be in my class, because i remember talking about our classes when we had first gotten our schedules. of course that was towards the end of summer, and probably one of the last times i talked to him. at first i was indifferent when we stopped talking, then i missed him, but now i don't even care. what i did to him was pretty messed up though. but like c'mon he asked me to go out just 2 days after me and john had broken up. i don't even know why i said yes cause i knew i wasn't ready to get into a relationship with him, but i guess i wanted to take the opportunity before it was gone. me and lee only went out for 2 weeks though, because i started talking to john again and realized i wanted to be with him so i just broke up with lee- oh god that was the worst. i did that face to face, and i remember it was on a monday, cause the whole weekend i was thinking about what i wanted to say to him, of course when it was time to talk to him, it all completely came out wrong and i ended up laughing too which made it worst. then that night i starting going out with john again. yeah so that's a brief summary of the me and lee situation. after me and lee had broken up we were still friends and talked on the phone often, i don't know what happened. oh wait yeah, it was cause ashley, you pranked him and he thought it was me, and then some girl called me bitching and i got offended so i said something to lee, and then ever since then we haven't spoken. and i doubt we ever will cause lee's the type of person that if he hates you, he hates you- there is no changing that. all of this is such old news. i have a problem. i seriously do. i tend to dwell on things. like i have a really good memory, i'm really good with dates, people's names, memories etc. i rarely forget things, and i think that is the problem. some things i just need to let go of. i don't know why i still think of them. like something could of happened last july and i'll still be thinking of it, or getting mad at it. i just really need to let things go, and not care about them, and not let them affect me. i'm really weird. i am sososo bored. for like an hour i was experimenting with different colors and formats for my live journal, and when i say an hour i mean an hour. haha and look at it, the only thing that is different is the color of the links and my user picture. oh well, it gave me something to do. alright well i'm going to get going. mwamwamwa<333