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[deeseast]

it has been a while and for good reason.

work is insanely busy, in our slow season

im pissing off more people lately

realizing that i buy more and more clothes everyday and for nothing
i like to be someone new, reinvent myself
tired of the boring, mundane world
create my own existence
although i keep trying something new, im never happy
never truly satisfied

im having a reflective day, alone

finally got my certificate from the board saying i passed. thats good.

called the x the other day, it was brief

still single right now

i need purpose
need someone to keep me happy and in good company
im tired of all the losers, drugs, alcohol, clubs, monotony
yet i cant seem to escape it

i need to move away
FAR away
we might be moving to california
i havent told anyone.... so dont ask me about it
it may be a good change that i need

also need to buy a maid for one day
this palce is a shit hole

i make a horrible fag
and a worse breeder

im just not happy with anything

i like ice cream tho
and donuts

this page is a waste of space and time

i need freinds again
ones that dont piss me off
and ones that i cant piss off either

i need to go to therapy in a lil while

ps, my birthday is coming up
dont think anyone cares
least of all is me
life is so uneventful
as busy as i make it

i need to leave existence