can't...stop...SMILING! EE!

[deerae]

so yeah...starting around midnight 25 ish hrs ago...my life has been absolutely GREAT! steven and i have been hanging out a lot more lately and talking more lately. friday when i went w/ him and 2 other ppl i did some stuff and wound up telling him EVERYTHING--exactly how i feel and have felt for a while! OMGosh! the next day...i was like, "why the hell did i do that?!" but yeah...steven gave us a scare a couple of nights back and we thought he was gonna die...thank GOD he didn't! that night made me REALLY realize how much i like him. so anyway...yesterday around midnight i went outside w/ him to talk and the conversation wound up w/ him telling me how he feels...which is EXACTLY HOW I FEEL! OMGosh...i wanted to melt b/c of the way he was telling me and the stuff he said. anywho...so yeah, he stayed until like 1 a.m. yesterday, then we talked on the phone for a while, then i went to bed. he woke me up today around 12:30 *i know, i know...lazy bum, oh well!* all 4 of us (lauren, jes, me, and steven) were gonna go job hunting after lauren and i got jes from school. well it didn't exactly work out as planned.. we got jes around 3 and then took her to get info about PACE and THEN we met up w/ steven.. at the mall. after we met up w/ him...the four of us went to look at the trailwood village apartments where amon met up w/ us. yeah...amon coming is a whole nother story in itself that i don't wanna go into right now. anywho...that took a while but the apartments were pretty nice! then we hung around there for a while all talking and trying to figure out where to go eat. lol. we finally decided on chili's. while we were at the apartments this girl named elle joined on to our lil group...SHE WAS COOL! lol. she kept tellin amon to shut up and stuff when he was bein retarded....AND HE LISTENED! it was GREAT! hehe. and she was a lot like us other girls in other ways too. so it was cool. chili's was yummy. while we were there steven asked if i wanted to go see a movie w/ him and OF COURSE i wanted to! he invited jes and lauren to come too...but only jes came. we had to make it seem like steven and i were going on a date so that amon wouldn't come...so amon thought jes was goin to her cousins. it was kinda amusing. amon was gettin on steven's nerves BIG TIME tonight. oh well. it happens. so yeah...amon left w/ lauren and elle and went who knows where? hehe. steven, jes, and i all went to the mall and checked out movies. at first we were gonna go see darkness...but then we were told it sucked, so we decided on white noise instead...steven and i that is...jes was no where involved in the decision. lol. the only showing that wasn't sold out was out 10:05...so we had to go hang out around the mall for a while and stuff. we ran into some of steven's friends...and then we met up w/ stevie and one of her friends. then ryan called steven all depressed and stuff, so we invited him to come to the movies w/ us. we love ryan! he's our bro! when one person in the "family" is depressed or what not...EVERYONE does what they can to make them feel better! so yeah...he came up to the mall. around 9 steven, ryan, jes, and i all went driving around for a while where steven and ryan did...well...stuff. lol. prolly nothing like you're thinking. then around 9:30 we went back to the mall so we could get seats in the theatre. it was the opening night. there was a long ass line to go into the theatre too! WOW! oh yeah! i saw one of my old friends angela! hehe...she thought steven was cute. i do too. hehe. so anyway...we watched the movie...it was pretty good...pretty freaky too...we liked it. then ryan went one way and steven brought jes and i back home. jes went in and i stayed in the car for a few minutes w/ steven. it was a kinda long g'bye. lol. i haven't had this feeling to where i just didn't wanna leave the person in a while. it was hard to leave. but as soon as i was inside the door.. he called, so it was all good. lol. i like him SO MUCH!!!! and he likes me too! isn't it AMAZING?! lol. and now i'm here. writing. rambling. smiling.

i'm gonna go now. bye bye!

-x-ladonis rae-x-