all the small things

[deerae]

WOW! so much crap has happened since the last time i updated! to start things off...i got kicked outta my house! WOOHOO! lol..not really, but it's ok b/c i'm living w/ one of my bestest friends now! I LOVE YOU LAUREN! hehe...you're sitting across the room from me right now watching "hey arnold". lol. anywho...so yeah, that was the main thing that has happened. my mom is a bitch. my dad is a dick. perfect parents, eh? yeah not really. oh well. i'm ok. braden and rachel broke up:( sadness for rachel. yeah i've also been talking to her a little bit since my last update. lol. she's a pretty cool girl. *sorry for other things i've said about you!* anywho...since they had to break up b/c of her mother, braden's been calling me more and stuff. yeah..too much personal stuff that i don't want everyone knowing about going on there. i'm sure braden wouldn't want me to mention all of it either. but yeah...braden and i aren't going to be speaking or anything for at least i couple of days. i told him to let me call him when i'm ready to. i know i'm gonna miss talking to him by tonight probably. i don't know though. i'm really happy w/ the way things are progressing w/ stevo. i really like him. he's the only one i've really liked since braden and i broke up back in july. stevo makes me soo happy! i don't want to just throw that away right now. that's the reason for not talking to braden for a bit. i just really need to figure everything out in my head. i love braden...i always have and i always will, but the love i have for him now is not the same love that i did have for him even a month ago. so much shit has happened that he just totally pushed me away. there has been a couple of other guys i've been kinda interested in since the break up, but i pushed them all away hoping braden and i would get another chance. i'm kinda stupid right now b/c im finally getting that chance w/ him...and i'm not taking it. but i really think stevo may be worth it! :D anyway, i don't really know how to put into words how i feel about steven. he's just...amazing. well that's all i really have to talk about. i could talk about lauren's crazy insane dreams that she is telling me right now...but i'll leave that to her. lol. they're quite amusing! everyone should call me! my # is 832 247 7125 so there is NO excuse now! :P i'll talk to all you kids later! bye!

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